Oh yeah its 1.31 a.m and am currently updating ya ya.
guess what?
finally after almost 7 months waiting, i get to futher my studies ! yeah its a bit too late for my age, like some of my friends already second year and all .
but there’s no such thing la like lambat sangat dah nak continue degree like hello education tu everytime boleh , oh my course take 4 years , i hope i can shorten em but don’t know yet tengoklah ,
but for now all i wanna say is thankyou so much for all the things that had happened, happening in my life now.
setiap benda berlaku tu ada hikmahnya. so i selalu fikir, mungkin kerja sementara ni dapat banyak benefit for myself, like seriously make me be more confident, act and try be more responsible, independent, understanding and trying to endure every consequences. how to react to everything, and banyaklah.
tak semestinya belajar je kita dapat belajar , from work also we can learn so many things!
i can see that i be more confident now like so different from zaman dulu , and i realise that الله want me to experience other things first and be more experienced !
no matter lah what job u get yourself into but from there u can learning okay
yeah forgot to mention that i get USIM , course Bachelor of Quranic studies with Multimedia , just simple 💁🏻♀️ dont wanna make it complicated, but suitable with my diploma course before that is syariah courses, i plan to take degree in law instead and actually before this awal dulu i ada apply kos syariah and undang-undang dekat UIA , and i actually terpilih to come for the interview, and guess what?
i tak. i mean i sedar lambat dah, i tak cek pun . tarikh dah terlepas. i guess like dua or tiga minggu late, i was chosen datang iv untuk kos law dekat UIA tu dude tapi tulah i cek lambat sangat and sedar sedar melepas , sedih nak manpus. tapi that just interview an, belum tentu i will be chosen . tapi tulah, tak ada rezeki. redha is the best way to calm yourself down.
so frustrated. and after that i try try and try. sampailah macam wasting my time so i apply kerja. work as teacher like for a short time then decided to apply another job so yeah. reason i quit being a teacher? or more like the students there called me ustazah, the reason?
because i rasa tak manpu lagi nak mengajar even just darjah satu dua n tiga lol
so i , quit.
sooo from end of disember till now currently at f.o.s lah . sumpah banyak benda belajar . like seriously, and so grateful and thankful to Him . for all these experiences, like im so thankful thank you so much feel like crying pun ada like okay lama lama kita boleh fikir hikmah tu semua .
like time tu kita nak sambung belajar, tapi takdapat, pujuk diri not my time yet, still need to learn more things, be more matured , like , okay i will get through this. i know Allah’s plan so incredible. i got this.
yeah, u always need to motivate yourself! trying hard to be positive. and positive .
doa doa doa. oh please dont ever mention that word, that is giving up. dont you ever dare to do so!
so now, after wait, cry, pray, almost give up, cry , pray, wait,
I berjaya. All i wanna say is thankyousomuchdearAllah 💕
so i register nanti 4 september, i resigned from work this 17th august, i balik kampung 22 august raya haji, i gaji 31 august. i daftar 4 september .
so 31 august i maybe servicing braces, face treatment *ifgotextramoneylolihopeso , then buying some things , . maybe kalau free pun after that and before 3 september i guess . so i will just take a nap lah sepuasnya if got no other plan , yeah.
i still have a long joirney ahead of me . pray for me, make your parents proud of you so you can be more proud of yourself after 💕 ,
2.08 a.m , 2th august
