Class for this semester begin this tuesday September 10th. So got to chill out this two days left . All the things ready, but need to buy more things as usual for the class. Yup i live in the new house too. New people around me . Maybe that is why i said new environment?
When people ask me why I didn’t stick with the same people as to why im not living with the old housemates or why I didn’t stay around with people that’s same course or anything sorts of questions like these all .
Well. I just like something new. I mean, i want to be surround with new people, I cannot just be with the same people even though how much i love certain same people, i just i want to try something new. I think i like new things and just see how that gonna turns out to be. Cant help the nervous/paranoia/trust issue/expectations to be left out but that is what i want to push away from.
Admit it though. I am scared, idk. Nervous i think? Even i loves being alone and prefer being like a survivor, i just can’t help the feelings of fear. I sometimes can’t figure what I’m most afraid of, thought i know but I can’t want to know or even let it slide in my mind i know i just need to push it out.
Because i know, everything is never going to be easy, i just have to and will come thru it, and most of all i know i can handle them and i will.
4.08am, september 7th.