Thursday, 5 July 2018
just
Well this world is full of toxic people. We cant trust people , people are human. Human = human .
Sometimes we tend to think that this world is not a safe place anymore. Sometimes we think that we cant even trust ourselves. Hm. Sometimes .
So, that is mm just whats on my mind thinking what lah kan like this year so much had happened. So much worse. We are living in 2018 . Its not weird anymore, if we look at other side. I mean the world nearly gonna end soon . That got everyone goosebumps .
Actually im more like to speaking when im talking or more like typing about what im thinking. Because mindset thinking that i can deliver what is on my mind when i tend to speak other than my language. Even it got so much grammatical errors. I don’t mind as long as i can deliver my thoughts.
Lol. Sometimes maybe because the effect of me always reading romantic cliche romance novel , i mean english novel. Because it such a waste of my time reading malay novel. I mean so boring. So i decide to read english novel in order to improve my english too , right? Not just from a freaking thick book . Sometimes i always read them from phone also , wattpad app. So why not, we can learn everywhere. From watching english movie also even they got so much yeah yano(you know) . So from there i actually can learn and so much i can get . Not just the language, ofcourse.
Bruh, even from korean drama also can make me learn their language . Lol. Like literally the basic one, we can sometimes learning at the same time like no matter what we do, we can learn from there.
No matter where we are, what surrounds us, we can learn.
Thats pretty much bout it. Always, learn and learning .
So right now my mind thinking, how to be more matured?
People said, you can get more matured from the experience. That is so correct. That is so true.
But right now what i mean is, macam mana eh nak matang? Even my supervisor said that i tak matang. People around me even said the same thing. I dont know maybe from how i react, act, solve probs, or just me?
SV comment all the staff at my working place they all younger . Than me. But then I am the one who act more childish. Not seem like my age. Not serious. Always playing around. I, i just dont know.
And she even said maybe because i am the happy go lucky person so she let it go . But then what is the matter about that?
Aku taktahulah. For me i think, nak act matang at my work place tu, like tak senyum like be so serious all the time. Like thats not me at all. Kalau tak senyum it would be sooo freaking worse, awkward and at the same time i akan feeling so guilty. Like tak gelak sekali dengan lawak adik adik kat situ i feel like not fun at all. So i join lah kan dorang have fun playing around enjoy together, but benda tu pun dicop tak matang eh and childish? lol
So sv will call me and be mad telling me i am the one who lebih tua so tunjuk like your age around them, be more serious so they can follow me be serious. Im like , for work ofcourse you have to be serious. But then like talking laughing pun hm. I dont know maybie just i assuming so much .
But then kan, it is true that i tak matang pun. Like i cant be ready for everything. Yet.
Aku sendiri rasa yang aku ni tak matang lagi. Even aku ni dah dua puluh dua, tahun depan dua puluh tiga, empat. Taktahu bila matang tu nak sampai.
I am not ready for everything. I am not worthy for everyone or better yet, someone .
But i kakak in my family, i am the eldest so from there i can act more responsible or more matured as a sister to my siblings. But from others, or my surrounding. I can’t.
I don’t know how. hm tired of thinking . Overthinking. Super thinking.
So i guess for now, let just try to be more responsible. Try to be yourself . Bring yourself to the more positive side . Look around you, and start thinking what you can do from there.
Aku taktahulah aku merepek apa but thats what im saying to myself. Motivating myself .
Motivate yourself first so you can motivate people around you. Be more loving, supportive, and nice?
Yeah . Be more matured.
Love, zara 💕
Tuesday, 3 July 2018
Ready or Nah?
Well, Hello there.
well currently right now imma listening to romantic songs playlist oh so cliche
right here waiting for you well thats an old song , bosan pulaktu slow idontlikeit much but then the lyrics cam best.
so yeah what i talked about on my last post , cabaran eh? well not so cabar sangat. just get surrounded with new people and new hmm yeah everything new. so,
okay wait hmm what i am bout to story is these things already passed so nothing got related to me anymore including feeling and etc.
so bila kau dah start kerja, ofcourse lah u aim for the best kan. so u do your work with so much sincere and honesty and all. yeah u get to know more friends . and you realize again that hooman ni banyak ragam and macam macam kan.
so then the best part is when you get to know more chinese friends, from all different races lah kan. most of them are so nice, crazy silly and all like seriously love them. but then, the worst part is when u kena marah dengan orang atas. like me, i selalu kena marah dengan assistant lelaki tu , i mean he nice. but then when he start to get angry at u haih u dont know what else u can do.
like he want everything to be perfect. no mistake at all, well biasalah kerja kan. he so annoying but then it was my mistake afterall. and then pernah i macam tak layan after kena marah tu, buat buat saiko lah kan *well im such a bad ass , pastu dia panggil then i buat macam malas nak layan , then dia rasa tercabar lah kan. well fact bout me : i tak boleh kena tegur *such a worse tapi i cuba to get rid of that weakness of me i will try *sigh
and then dia cam bengang lah kan, dia panggil i. i pun pergi lah dekat dia , at first i buat muka kerek, arm crossed bukan cekak pinggang tapi arm crossed lol, like u peluk urself tu then dia tanya i kenapa apa semua, bla bla bla and then i okay first lah, i nak cakap yang i tak suka lelaki marah. like who are they nak marah marah *i mean not include my family lah , and then lagi lagi ni pulak stranger marah i kan lol takdelah stranger, my boss jugak *assistant lah, and then sebabtu i macam bengang jugak , dia ingat dia lelaki dia boleh nak marah marah perempuan sukati ? camtu? and then yelah kan, sebabtu i act kerek tu first first , then
after dia dah cakap cakap kan, i pun cam, okay i salah, i patut hormat dia, n dia cakap dia marah bukan saja saja n then tu pun salah i jugak n then, i takboleh kalau kena tegur plus kena marah kan soooo i pun ternangis depan dia, yelah after all u need to lower your ego right? so i pun nangis lah, and then i pun mintak maaf lah semua n then pastu dia cakap apa tau, dia cakap, äbang pun nak berair mata dah tengok zara nangis , i pun cam lollll tapi memang betul pun mata dia berair i nampak hahahha lawak la . and then i just minta maaf dekat dia and all then done,
start from that lah i start to work more like serious. i pun cam okay bila ada orang yang boleh encourage u to work more serious be honest like macam okay automatic u punya mindset pun macam okay aku kena kerja betul betul kalau tak kena marah or more like bila ada orang macam tu or u surrounded wif people like that, u akan be more like terpengaruh untuk work harder.
like kalau u surrounded wif people that is main main bila buat kerja, u pun akan be main main bila kerja kan ? ha camtu . so sekarang bila dia dah pindah to branch lain i pun cam tenang jugak lol but at the same time, i rasa macam dah tak serious dah bila buat kerja, like banyak salah. sebelum ni kalau dia ada , kalau salah banyak lah dia ajar but now macam dah takde benda tu so i be more like i buat i punya kerja u buat u punya kerja like dah tak more harder like always lah .
but then, i update mindset balik, okay i need to be more independent, kerja ikhlas and be more serious like always. lol
so thats a pit pat bout my work life, supervisor i tu indian woman . dia ni memang serious lah. like siapa yang nak kerja kat tempat i tu kan, actually u cannot borak at all. do your work . like bosan kan? tapi i ni bukan ikut rules sangat . so i be like always trying to make a silly joke when im with her. like banyak borak dengan supervisor i tu, pastu dia bukan jenis gelak or senyum sangat , tapi bila dia gelak time i borak ngan dia tu i rasa cam appreciated lah kan.
then ada satu masa tu, dia cakap u ni kan zara, i rasa u orang pertama dekat fos ni ,
cantik, rajin tapi jahat. u nakal tau , *banyak salah and all pastu dia cakap tulah nakal nakal pun tapi kalau kerja u buat okay takpe tapi ni kalau u buat salah pun takboleh jugak. lol n then i kan selalu main main , dia pun cakap to me , : i tak boleh nak buat apa sebab u punya attitude memang jenis happy go lucky so, *shrugging lol
pastu sometimes tu muka dia memang jenis serious tau sometimes i pun jadi affected macam aduh muka miss serious mesti mood dia tak okay i pun cam nak buat kerja pun takde mood lol. but then dia kata muka i memang macamnilah. lol tapi i tak boleh jugak nak terima bila orang muka serious serious ni haha.
i pun lagi tak boleh dengan orang muka serious, garang, bengis semua. i automatik akan takde mood bila jumpa orang macamtu lol. so please always smiling people. sebab aku pun jenis senyum punya orang .
so em, about feelings dekat staff sana ? well ill continue later.bye peeps.
love, zara :)
well currently right now imma listening to romantic songs playlist oh so cliche
right here waiting for you well thats an old song , bosan pulaktu slow idontlikeit much but then the lyrics cam best.
so yeah what i talked about on my last post , cabaran eh? well not so cabar sangat. just get surrounded with new people and new hmm yeah everything new. so,
okay wait hmm what i am bout to story is these things already passed so nothing got related to me anymore including feeling and etc.
so bila kau dah start kerja, ofcourse lah u aim for the best kan. so u do your work with so much sincere and honesty and all. yeah u get to know more friends . and you realize again that hooman ni banyak ragam and macam macam kan.
so then the best part is when you get to know more chinese friends, from all different races lah kan. most of them are so nice, crazy silly and all like seriously love them. but then, the worst part is when u kena marah dengan orang atas. like me, i selalu kena marah dengan assistant lelaki tu , i mean he nice. but then when he start to get angry at u haih u dont know what else u can do.
like he want everything to be perfect. no mistake at all, well biasalah kerja kan. he so annoying but then it was my mistake afterall. and then pernah i macam tak layan after kena marah tu, buat buat saiko lah kan *well im such a bad ass , pastu dia panggil then i buat macam malas nak layan , then dia rasa tercabar lah kan. well fact bout me : i tak boleh kena tegur *such a worse tapi i cuba to get rid of that weakness of me i will try *sigh
and then dia cam bengang lah kan, dia panggil i. i pun pergi lah dekat dia , at first i buat muka kerek, arm crossed bukan cekak pinggang tapi arm crossed lol, like u peluk urself tu then dia tanya i kenapa apa semua, bla bla bla and then i okay first lah, i nak cakap yang i tak suka lelaki marah. like who are they nak marah marah *i mean not include my family lah , and then lagi lagi ni pulak stranger marah i kan lol takdelah stranger, my boss jugak *assistant lah, and then sebabtu i macam bengang jugak , dia ingat dia lelaki dia boleh nak marah marah perempuan sukati ? camtu? and then yelah kan, sebabtu i act kerek tu first first , then
after dia dah cakap cakap kan, i pun cam, okay i salah, i patut hormat dia, n dia cakap dia marah bukan saja saja n then tu pun salah i jugak n then, i takboleh kalau kena tegur plus kena marah kan soooo i pun ternangis depan dia, yelah after all u need to lower your ego right? so i pun nangis lah, and then i pun mintak maaf lah semua n then pastu dia cakap apa tau, dia cakap, äbang pun nak berair mata dah tengok zara nangis , i pun cam lollll tapi memang betul pun mata dia berair i nampak hahahha lawak la . and then i just minta maaf dekat dia and all then done,
start from that lah i start to work more like serious. i pun cam okay bila ada orang yang boleh encourage u to work more serious be honest like macam okay automatic u punya mindset pun macam okay aku kena kerja betul betul kalau tak kena marah or more like bila ada orang macam tu or u surrounded wif people like that, u akan be more like terpengaruh untuk work harder.
like kalau u surrounded wif people that is main main bila buat kerja, u pun akan be main main bila kerja kan ? ha camtu . so sekarang bila dia dah pindah to branch lain i pun cam tenang jugak lol but at the same time, i rasa macam dah tak serious dah bila buat kerja, like banyak salah. sebelum ni kalau dia ada , kalau salah banyak lah dia ajar but now macam dah takde benda tu so i be more like i buat i punya kerja u buat u punya kerja like dah tak more harder like always lah .
but then, i update mindset balik, okay i need to be more independent, kerja ikhlas and be more serious like always. lol
so thats a pit pat bout my work life, supervisor i tu indian woman . dia ni memang serious lah. like siapa yang nak kerja kat tempat i tu kan, actually u cannot borak at all. do your work . like bosan kan? tapi i ni bukan ikut rules sangat . so i be like always trying to make a silly joke when im with her. like banyak borak dengan supervisor i tu, pastu dia bukan jenis gelak or senyum sangat , tapi bila dia gelak time i borak ngan dia tu i rasa cam appreciated lah kan.
then ada satu masa tu, dia cakap u ni kan zara, i rasa u orang pertama dekat fos ni ,
cantik, rajin tapi jahat. u nakal tau , *banyak salah and all pastu dia cakap tulah nakal nakal pun tapi kalau kerja u buat okay takpe tapi ni kalau u buat salah pun takboleh jugak. lol n then i kan selalu main main , dia pun cakap to me , : i tak boleh nak buat apa sebab u punya attitude memang jenis happy go lucky so, *shrugging lol
pastu sometimes tu muka dia memang jenis serious tau sometimes i pun jadi affected macam aduh muka miss serious mesti mood dia tak okay i pun cam nak buat kerja pun takde mood lol. but then dia kata muka i memang macamnilah. lol tapi i tak boleh jugak nak terima bila orang muka serious serious ni haha.
i pun lagi tak boleh dengan orang muka serious, garang, bengis semua. i automatik akan takde mood bila jumpa orang macamtu lol. so please always smiling people. sebab aku pun jenis senyum punya orang .
so em, about feelings dekat staff sana ? well ill continue later.bye peeps.
love, zara :)
Monday, 2 July 2018
My work not so work life
I suggest here that please read post sebelum ni before u read this one or u wont get a full story bout ma life lol.
Assalammualaikum afterall.
So before i continue on my work journey, i nak story sikit bout my diploma life lah . currently listening to nervous by shawn mendes. so i guess diploma life is not so bad but so sad emotional and alone. like every night im crying bila teringat zaman my worse childhood memories.
hahaha . when u twenty, u start to thinking bout everything starting from ur parents. ur childhood memories.
u know what. when u growing up, u start to know and saw a lil not so bit bout ur parents attitude, your siblings life, and how ur childhood turns to. im the eldest afterall. so memang cabaran lah kan. so im crying everynight on ma bed 🛏 time i diploma dulu . haha what a sad life. and i tak pernah pergi kaunseling. that was ma first time i guess . i kena pergi kaunseling , that kaunselor saiko i cerita . i pun tercerita lah. and he said im trauma . what a horrible life ive been living lah haha. and then i pun sedih , i taknak balik rumah. mom pujuk balik okay i balik. and then i pun have a slow talk wif mom bout dad in ma room crying and all. and then mom pujuk telling me that no one is perfect. i need to accept the weakness of the person i love even its so damn hard. and i okay. i try.
so that was a lil campak balik bout ma diploma life, how i growing up from that. afterall, u have to be strong, be independent, responsible and more positive thinking and never overthinking and ofcourse be more matured! you are twenty two zara .
okay and then my work life! so parents asked me pergi mengajar dekat mana mana sekolah sementara jap. lol and then i worked dekat sekolah agama intergrasi khaira country homes. lol u must be guessing they called me ustazah right? lol damn u right! so i start teaching kids darjah 1,2,3 what a life hahahaha. they called me ustazah fatimah hahahahah i always wanna laugh my ass off bila teringat balik. ustazah rockers here kids! lol ustazah ma ass. so im teaching there.
sekejap je, dalam 3 bulan? 4 ? weh kenapa tak ingat hahaha n then i decided to work dekat aeon. ayah so against me working here. but after discussing here and there finally i get to work here. u kno what i sampai cari kerja dekat mall area kl and thinking bout sewa a room . i got one though, aeon mall shah alam dekat butik and also i got to rent a room too dekat condo area situ but then, nah im not working there. far away from home.
so i kerja je lah dekat f.o.s aeon rawang ni. i rasa better dari jadi promoter dalam aeon lol. so alhamdulillah gaji not so bad afterall u need to work hard to achieve something right. and then from working there i got so many experiences! from being so shy, not confident, i got my confidence back ! people always telling me like zara suka sangat senyum mesti murah rezeki selalu. i pun aminkan lol i pun taktahu kenapa i suka senyum! im so murah hati! dekat mana mana customer pun i senyum!
and then first time im working there, im so not confident to approach customer lelaki. weh i bukan berani sangat k. but then when im thinking that im working, so i beranikan diri jugak to approach. but! ada jugak customer kacau but they funny kay i pun takboleh jugak i mudah terhibur so i gelak je dorang buat kelaka haih i takboleh what a me .
so ada jugak customer tu selalu datang , second time dia datang, dia tanya awak dah kahwin belum? i kan tak sombong so i layan jela sambil buat kerja kang i tak layan nanti kata workers sombong well lagipun i tengah kerja kan so i layan la customer. pastu the berapa kali tah time dia datang, i jadi cashier time tu. dia nak pay, hahahaha i nak tegelak bila ingat balik.
i kan friendly , i pun cakap eh *macam buat buat kenal dia lah kan time dia nak bayar tu. at that time pulak supervisor dengan assistant ada kat sebelah i hahahah. so i just eh and then senyum and then weh, dia pun boleh pulak letak fon dia atas counter tu mintak number i hahahahahah i nak tergelak i taktahula pasal apa pastu i geleng geleng kepala je supervisor i dh pandang pandang assistant pun haha pastu i geleng geleng senyum je pastu dia cam ngeluh i cepat cepat buat pusing belakang and then dia blah hahahahahhaah . smpai sekarang i taknampak dah batang hidung dia weh haha.
tapi tulah cabaran lain datang. hahaha , but the best nya bila staff katsitu tak percaya bila i kata i dua puluh dua . dierang semua ingat i lapan belas weh baru lepas spm i pun apa lagi fefeeling muda lah kan. pernah i naik grab abang grab tu agak i umur berapa pun cakap i tingkatan berapa lagi hahaha the best of feeling younger lol. sebab fact i kecik kot, plus rendah hahahah. what a sad life .
and then banyak kali lah kan kena puji dengan customer said that i taknampak duapuluh langsung muka cam budakbudak so thats the best lah kan. lol tapi the worst nya bila i paling tua katsitu ada jugakla yang takhormat cam pijak kepala something tapi takdela kan mungkin perasaan i jekot.
haha and then , ha cabaran kerja katsitu? well sambung nanti.
love, zara 💕
Assalammualaikum afterall.
So before i continue on my work journey, i nak story sikit bout my diploma life lah . currently listening to nervous by shawn mendes. so i guess diploma life is not so bad but so sad emotional and alone. like every night im crying bila teringat zaman my worse childhood memories.
hahaha . when u twenty, u start to thinking bout everything starting from ur parents. ur childhood memories.
u know what. when u growing up, u start to know and saw a lil not so bit bout ur parents attitude, your siblings life, and how ur childhood turns to. im the eldest afterall. so memang cabaran lah kan. so im crying everynight on ma bed 🛏 time i diploma dulu . haha what a sad life. and i tak pernah pergi kaunseling. that was ma first time i guess . i kena pergi kaunseling , that kaunselor saiko i cerita . i pun tercerita lah. and he said im trauma . what a horrible life ive been living lah haha. and then i pun sedih , i taknak balik rumah. mom pujuk balik okay i balik. and then i pun have a slow talk wif mom bout dad in ma room crying and all. and then mom pujuk telling me that no one is perfect. i need to accept the weakness of the person i love even its so damn hard. and i okay. i try.
so that was a lil campak balik bout ma diploma life, how i growing up from that. afterall, u have to be strong, be independent, responsible and more positive thinking and never overthinking and ofcourse be more matured! you are twenty two zara .
okay and then my work life! so parents asked me pergi mengajar dekat mana mana sekolah sementara jap. lol and then i worked dekat sekolah agama intergrasi khaira country homes. lol u must be guessing they called me ustazah right? lol damn u right! so i start teaching kids darjah 1,2,3 what a life hahahaha. they called me ustazah fatimah hahahahah i always wanna laugh my ass off bila teringat balik. ustazah rockers here kids! lol ustazah ma ass. so im teaching there.
sekejap je, dalam 3 bulan? 4 ? weh kenapa tak ingat hahaha n then i decided to work dekat aeon. ayah so against me working here. but after discussing here and there finally i get to work here. u kno what i sampai cari kerja dekat mall area kl and thinking bout sewa a room . i got one though, aeon mall shah alam dekat butik and also i got to rent a room too dekat condo area situ but then, nah im not working there. far away from home.
so i kerja je lah dekat f.o.s aeon rawang ni. i rasa better dari jadi promoter dalam aeon lol. so alhamdulillah gaji not so bad afterall u need to work hard to achieve something right. and then from working there i got so many experiences! from being so shy, not confident, i got my confidence back ! people always telling me like zara suka sangat senyum mesti murah rezeki selalu. i pun aminkan lol i pun taktahu kenapa i suka senyum! im so murah hati! dekat mana mana customer pun i senyum!
and then first time im working there, im so not confident to approach customer lelaki. weh i bukan berani sangat k. but then when im thinking that im working, so i beranikan diri jugak to approach. but! ada jugak customer kacau but they funny kay i pun takboleh jugak i mudah terhibur so i gelak je dorang buat kelaka haih i takboleh what a me .
so ada jugak customer tu selalu datang , second time dia datang, dia tanya awak dah kahwin belum? i kan tak sombong so i layan jela sambil buat kerja kang i tak layan nanti kata workers sombong well lagipun i tengah kerja kan so i layan la customer. pastu the berapa kali tah time dia datang, i jadi cashier time tu. dia nak pay, hahahaha i nak tegelak bila ingat balik.
i kan friendly , i pun cakap eh *macam buat buat kenal dia lah kan time dia nak bayar tu. at that time pulak supervisor dengan assistant ada kat sebelah i hahahah. so i just eh and then senyum and then weh, dia pun boleh pulak letak fon dia atas counter tu mintak number i hahahahahah i nak tergelak i taktahula pasal apa pastu i geleng geleng kepala je supervisor i dh pandang pandang assistant pun haha pastu i geleng geleng senyum je pastu dia cam ngeluh i cepat cepat buat pusing belakang and then dia blah hahahahahhaah . smpai sekarang i taknampak dah batang hidung dia weh haha.
tapi tulah cabaran lain datang. hahaha , but the best nya bila staff katsitu tak percaya bila i kata i dua puluh dua . dierang semua ingat i lapan belas weh baru lepas spm i pun apa lagi fefeeling muda lah kan. pernah i naik grab abang grab tu agak i umur berapa pun cakap i tingkatan berapa lagi hahaha the best of feeling younger lol. sebab fact i kecik kot, plus rendah hahahah. what a sad life .
and then banyak kali lah kan kena puji dengan customer said that i taknampak duapuluh langsung muka cam budakbudak so thats the best lah kan. lol tapi the worst nya bila i paling tua katsitu ada jugakla yang takhormat cam pijak kepala something tapi takdela kan mungkin perasaan i jekot.
haha and then , ha cabaran kerja katsitu? well sambung nanti.
love, zara 💕
A lil pit pat bout ma life
Hello what’s up? down? nah Assalammualaikum is the best way to start afterall.
right now am listening to never be the same by camilia , so anybody must be so curious hows my life goin after eighteen right? nah ma life are not so interesting at all. just a little ordinary here n there. weh what a language lah okay okay.
am listening to let me by zayn . so back to then . at the age of 16 i decide to change my journey.okay bosan pulak lagu ni so i change now to in case u miss me by matthew 😽 . in case u miss me i wont change ma number if u need someone to call. bruh . forget it .
okay so at the age if sixteen i decide to change my journey i take science stream before and i felt like i want to futher my arabic so i decided at that time science agama would be ma journey. so a lil bit nicekan diri while learning religious thing . lol kk rn am listening to heathens by twenty one pilot.
so that time i futher my form four n the rest dekat sekolah menengah kebangsaan sungai pusu. anddddd stay at hostel for the first time. bruh u dont know that homesick feeling is so sick. lol everytime my parents datang jenguk then time dorang nak balik i boleh pulak nak berair mata im so weak lah even im the eldest in my siblings. n then u know what u came from a not so religious background then dekat hostel tu some or maybie most of em are lil bit religious lah kan always like to judging seyh. like idk. im sick of people like that n sometimes i pun dah mcm dorang so im sick of maself.
and then thinking and thinking, well that time semua tak matang like biasalah teen age right? so im not so making friends sangat time dekat asrama dulu. im just like wif myself all the time. so dari situ lah kot i belajar be independent sikit weh betul ke camtu eja? watever lah tapi i be more like dah suka sorang sorang sampai sekarang like dah biasa . sampai orang pun cam whats wrong wif u? im like i dont need anyone in ma life i can be wif me all the time so dont bother lol.
but then u sedar yang u actually alone . but sometimes u rasa sometimes u tak u just let it go. hahaha. thats my life. sampai u pergi mall u makan sorang sorang hahahah but that another story haha. i mean afterall thats how it all affect my life watever lah i nak cakap yang semua tu lah bagi kesan macamni kat i sekarang . eh how so penin sangat my words? lol okay . haha dont wanna be so emo right now currently listening to havana by camilia ohyeah i hop my heart is in havana lol 😝
okay so after sampai spm lah. hahahhaah i pun taktahu kenapa i bodoh gila spm i teruk gila. maybie thats how my life affected me so far .
now am grooving to 24k magic bruno mars . what u tryin to do? 24karat magic in de air~
so after spm apply here n there. so sad upu not on ma side. i applied matriks and all. dad even asked me to apply tahfiz that time like dad, teruk sangat ke perangai along? lol no lah u realize at that time ur father love u so much he want u to be surrounded wif gud people n be nice and be more religious,
its a beautiful nightt we lookin for smething down to do hey babe i think i wanna marry u yeah thats what im currently listenin to. so then guess what? i got matrik. in sains kesihatan. at kulim, kedah bakhang. at the same time i got diploma, and guess what course? diploma in tahfiz and syariah . bruh that got me goosebump eveytime ppl asked me zara u amik kos apa dlu? i pun wif a humble heart said i amik syariah kos dulu and they be like, okay. and look at me like im so religious after dude ! u dont know me? im a rock star 🌟 lol .
so yeah i think u know what my last decision. i took diploma. my dad macam nak i amik matrik instead. i pulak macam istikharah jugak, that night i felt like so tenang if i took tahfiz and syariah i dont know why. but i felt it lah. so i took diploma 3 years at kolej universiti alquran, kuala kubu bharu.
at that time lah eighteen till twenty half, i belajar growing up. ride a 🚊 train, make friends, from brunei banyak, sabah, and all. but u know what ? ramai budak kedah katsitu sampai i rasa suka bila cakap loghat kedah smpai i rasa hello zara? u nak kawin dengan orang kedah ke? n then i fikir dude thats so far awayyyy remember dulu u nak amik matrik kat kulim pun u taknak pergi now u nak jodoh kedah ohplease no. i just suka loghat depa je. penang pun macamtu kan loghat dorang? hahaha
right now am listening to rolex by ayo ohyeah dab lol. so i banyak lah belajar katsana i belajar shopping alone. naik train sorang pergi kl sentral, ts, mid, klcc like alone weh. ayah marah lah jugak ofcourse. and then dari situ i banyak belajar be so berdikari but not so berdikari. lol n nu sentral always be my favourite place untuk lepak and release stress even jauh lah jugak nak naik train dari kuala kubu bharu tu till kl sentral lol sanggup weh. how sad ma life.
okay rn gold by kiira while dancing to choreography by lia kim 1 million dance 💃. okay so banyak lah experiences from diploma life dulu. crush? ofkos lah ada . suka ? ofkos lah ada bruh we are hooman afterall right? but i suka tu takdelah i bercinta zaman diploma dulu. bruh tengok nama tempat tu pun u all punya mindset like oh semua budak baik baik takde nak cintan cintun hahahah thats how im thinking at first but then oh tak dierang semua sama je like orang luar haha . just they are more religious lah . they tu cam termasuk aku je sebab aku pun belajar situ lol but am not so im just ordinary girl rockin my life here n there. lol they nice not like me.
but i learn so many things lah there. bruh tempat i tu kan kalau diorang suka diorang series smpai nak masuk minang terus lah after habis nanti . proof? dah banyak . kawan i satu kos dierang takdela i nampak bercinta pun time tu tapi adalah rumor rumor tu pastu boom! menjadi jugak eh korang kawin jugek alhamdulillah congrats! no fake hope lah.
lol listening to happier by ed now. so banyaklah i nak cakap i banyak belajar katsana. actually kat mana mana tempat pun banyak benda boleh belajar . like your surroundings, people around u, everything . forgot to mention, why i tak bercinta time diploma dulu? hahaha actually i dah doa awalawal if u wanna know , i pray that i tak bercinta bila i jejak kaki kat tempat tu i pray that i tak fikir pasal tu pun time i diploma katsitu. haha n look 👀 Allah so amazing. im so strong that time .
bukan no one bothering me but Allah protect . i pun bukan jenis keluar bilik sangat . i nak keluar oun time i nak keluar shoppin thats all pastu terperap dalam bilik layan kdrama, dancing sampai pengsan lol! and then study. lol studyyy sangattttt.
and the thing is i jumpa classmate i kat tempat i kerja. dia pun tengok tengok. i pun tengok dia balik dengan muka saiko i lol 😆 n balik tu boleh pulak dia dm i dekat instagram i gigih kot get rid all boy-friend kat ig i how can he jumpa?! then i tak sombong jangan risau. i reply je. i rasa muak i block balik lol what a bad ass. sorry 😐
and then i pun 👩🎓 graduateeee . pss tipulah i tak fikir pasal my sad love story time diploma dulu. ada lah i stalk jugak but tak selalu. like so jarang . look how strong i masa tu?! im so proud of maself hoyeah.
n then i punya pointer tak hebat pun weh. i dah cakap i tak study pun i dancing je dlu. oh so sad what an ass u zara . iknow. sebabtu upu i takdapat. hahahhaa belajar tinggi pun tapi susah dapat upu . what a horrible life u been living zara. so i calm myself think positive maybie Allah want me to work first, experience more life be more matured get surrounded with more people ha camtulah . so i decided to work .
love, zara 💕
right now am listening to never be the same by camilia , so anybody must be so curious hows my life goin after eighteen right? nah ma life are not so interesting at all. just a little ordinary here n there. weh what a language lah okay okay.
am listening to let me by zayn . so back to then . at the age of 16 i decide to change my journey.okay bosan pulak lagu ni so i change now to in case u miss me by matthew 😽 . in case u miss me i wont change ma number if u need someone to call. bruh . forget it .
okay so at the age if sixteen i decide to change my journey i take science stream before and i felt like i want to futher my arabic so i decided at that time science agama would be ma journey. so a lil bit nicekan diri while learning religious thing . lol kk rn am listening to heathens by twenty one pilot.
so that time i futher my form four n the rest dekat sekolah menengah kebangsaan sungai pusu. anddddd stay at hostel for the first time. bruh u dont know that homesick feeling is so sick. lol everytime my parents datang jenguk then time dorang nak balik i boleh pulak nak berair mata im so weak lah even im the eldest in my siblings. n then u know what u came from a not so religious background then dekat hostel tu some or maybie most of em are lil bit religious lah kan always like to judging seyh. like idk. im sick of people like that n sometimes i pun dah mcm dorang so im sick of maself.
and then thinking and thinking, well that time semua tak matang like biasalah teen age right? so im not so making friends sangat time dekat asrama dulu. im just like wif myself all the time. so dari situ lah kot i belajar be independent sikit weh betul ke camtu eja? watever lah tapi i be more like dah suka sorang sorang sampai sekarang like dah biasa . sampai orang pun cam whats wrong wif u? im like i dont need anyone in ma life i can be wif me all the time so dont bother lol.
but then u sedar yang u actually alone . but sometimes u rasa sometimes u tak u just let it go. hahaha. thats my life. sampai u pergi mall u makan sorang sorang hahahah but that another story haha. i mean afterall thats how it all affect my life watever lah i nak cakap yang semua tu lah bagi kesan macamni kat i sekarang . eh how so penin sangat my words? lol okay . haha dont wanna be so emo right now currently listening to havana by camilia ohyeah i hop my heart is in havana lol 😝
okay so after sampai spm lah. hahahhaah i pun taktahu kenapa i bodoh gila spm i teruk gila. maybie thats how my life affected me so far .
now am grooving to 24k magic bruno mars . what u tryin to do? 24karat magic in de air~
so after spm apply here n there. so sad upu not on ma side. i applied matriks and all. dad even asked me to apply tahfiz that time like dad, teruk sangat ke perangai along? lol no lah u realize at that time ur father love u so much he want u to be surrounded wif gud people n be nice and be more religious,
its a beautiful nightt we lookin for smething down to do hey babe i think i wanna marry u yeah thats what im currently listenin to. so then guess what? i got matrik. in sains kesihatan. at kulim, kedah bakhang. at the same time i got diploma, and guess what course? diploma in tahfiz and syariah . bruh that got me goosebump eveytime ppl asked me zara u amik kos apa dlu? i pun wif a humble heart said i amik syariah kos dulu and they be like, okay. and look at me like im so religious after dude ! u dont know me? im a rock star 🌟 lol .
so yeah i think u know what my last decision. i took diploma. my dad macam nak i amik matrik instead. i pulak macam istikharah jugak, that night i felt like so tenang if i took tahfiz and syariah i dont know why. but i felt it lah. so i took diploma 3 years at kolej universiti alquran, kuala kubu bharu.
at that time lah eighteen till twenty half, i belajar growing up. ride a 🚊 train, make friends, from brunei banyak, sabah, and all. but u know what ? ramai budak kedah katsitu sampai i rasa suka bila cakap loghat kedah smpai i rasa hello zara? u nak kawin dengan orang kedah ke? n then i fikir dude thats so far awayyyy remember dulu u nak amik matrik kat kulim pun u taknak pergi now u nak jodoh kedah ohplease no. i just suka loghat depa je. penang pun macamtu kan loghat dorang? hahaha
right now am listening to rolex by ayo ohyeah dab lol. so i banyak lah belajar katsana i belajar shopping alone. naik train sorang pergi kl sentral, ts, mid, klcc like alone weh. ayah marah lah jugak ofcourse. and then dari situ i banyak belajar be so berdikari but not so berdikari. lol n nu sentral always be my favourite place untuk lepak and release stress even jauh lah jugak nak naik train dari kuala kubu bharu tu till kl sentral lol sanggup weh. how sad ma life.
okay rn gold by kiira while dancing to choreography by lia kim 1 million dance 💃. okay so banyak lah experiences from diploma life dulu. crush? ofkos lah ada . suka ? ofkos lah ada bruh we are hooman afterall right? but i suka tu takdelah i bercinta zaman diploma dulu. bruh tengok nama tempat tu pun u all punya mindset like oh semua budak baik baik takde nak cintan cintun hahahah thats how im thinking at first but then oh tak dierang semua sama je like orang luar haha . just they are more religious lah . they tu cam termasuk aku je sebab aku pun belajar situ lol but am not so im just ordinary girl rockin my life here n there. lol they nice not like me.
but i learn so many things lah there. bruh tempat i tu kan kalau diorang suka diorang series smpai nak masuk minang terus lah after habis nanti . proof? dah banyak . kawan i satu kos dierang takdela i nampak bercinta pun time tu tapi adalah rumor rumor tu pastu boom! menjadi jugak eh korang kawin jugek alhamdulillah congrats! no fake hope lah.
lol listening to happier by ed now. so banyaklah i nak cakap i banyak belajar katsana. actually kat mana mana tempat pun banyak benda boleh belajar . like your surroundings, people around u, everything . forgot to mention, why i tak bercinta time diploma dulu? hahaha actually i dah doa awalawal if u wanna know , i pray that i tak bercinta bila i jejak kaki kat tempat tu i pray that i tak fikir pasal tu pun time i diploma katsitu. haha n look 👀 Allah so amazing. im so strong that time .
bukan no one bothering me but Allah protect . i pun bukan jenis keluar bilik sangat . i nak keluar oun time i nak keluar shoppin thats all pastu terperap dalam bilik layan kdrama, dancing sampai pengsan lol! and then study. lol studyyy sangattttt.
and the thing is i jumpa classmate i kat tempat i kerja. dia pun tengok tengok. i pun tengok dia balik dengan muka saiko i lol 😆 n balik tu boleh pulak dia dm i dekat instagram i gigih kot get rid all boy-friend kat ig i how can he jumpa?! then i tak sombong jangan risau. i reply je. i rasa muak i block balik lol what a bad ass. sorry 😐
and then i pun 👩🎓 graduateeee . pss tipulah i tak fikir pasal my sad love story time diploma dulu. ada lah i stalk jugak but tak selalu. like so jarang . look how strong i masa tu?! im so proud of maself hoyeah.
n then i punya pointer tak hebat pun weh. i dah cakap i tak study pun i dancing je dlu. oh so sad what an ass u zara . iknow. sebabtu upu i takdapat. hahahhaa belajar tinggi pun tapi susah dapat upu . what a horrible life u been living zara. so i calm myself think positive maybie Allah want me to work first, experience more life be more matured get surrounded with more people ha camtulah . so i decided to work .
love, zara 💕
Holla July 2018
Hello gorgeous. Assalammualaikum well kalau i bagi salam i dont know ada orang jawab tak lol kk .
So right now am currently on the bed with ma headphone on while playing dont by Ed sheeran, dude thats an old song ! bruh i don ker as long as i can grooving kbye.
So actually i was currently suffering but not so suffered from chicken pox? eww thats gross! ya ya with all the scars iknow i got it but dude they goin to get away from ur body too soon okay! dont worry i also consume shaklee so got no probs at all and also im goin to have an appointment with klinik hana soon
okay change right now am currently enjoy to im in love with the cocoa by hitimpulse. actually im a bit impressed wif this song like youre in love with the cocoa and u make that as a song while the music video is a bit awkward like standing while holding the cocoa lol
okay back to the topic . im goin to have an appointment with klinik hana at wangsa maju soon to fix the scars on my face like clear it off lol maybie on this wednesday am not so sure . i actually nak pergi tadi dude but then mom said takpayah takpayah im like so frustrated like i dah siap pun haih
haih my life. im like currently having a crush on everyone like wheres my true love actually hiding? like sampai bila u nak crush crush everywhere zara. u should start thinking bout ur future life now zara. ohmy.
okayokay im listening to perfect by ed sheeran now. homagad u never know how im soooo in love wif this song! oh every girls love it! u know what?! i nak use this song for my wedding okay! but then fattzura dah steal it from me!!! like everytime i hear this song im a lil bit teringat dekat fattah wedding like yeah i pernah je minat jugak fattah amin tu even orang kata muka dia jambu lol but then they have to use my song as their wedding song!! so sad ohmalife . itsokay
i ada lagu lain you are my reason by calum scott! okay im gonna use this song for my wedding soon hoyeh! but am gonna use perfect jugak fer my wedding song nanti lol. hokay!
back to the topic. i nak pergi klinik hana tu nak buat treatment and then goin okay wait now im listening to electric kiss by exo. oh i love their beat . again! dude dahlah concert dierang sabtu ni make sure u strong ur heart firstttt bcs please accept the fact that ur not goin! okay okay im trying okay change the song please. okay now lost in japan by shawn but its my alarm song so i feel a bit sleepy haha sokay am not gonna change it .
so after goin to klinik hana oh u can find them on instagram @klinikhana they r so best lah! so after am goin to hop onto cinema? watching incredible? babe i na tengok skyscraper dude that therock berlakon! my bae since childhood wwe bro! no lah i mean hello i can buat kening angkat satu macam dia selalu buat okay! like my childhood even ask me everytime weh buat mata therock weh so i always lah show off kay okay sekarang it was IDGAF by dualipa bruh that song are the best kot like the lyrics so win! u say ur sorry but its too late now so save it get gone shut up! lol thats my favorite .
but then skycraper show dekat sunway putra mall on this thursday dude im goin to start working on that day!
so i takdapat la nak tengok skyscraper tu i guess. then i maybie jalanjalan dekat sunway mall je after. makesure to get that ice caramel macchiato ofcourse! but then i forgot la sunway ada startbuck tak? i lupa weh lama i tak keluar what a lady . so okay bosan pulak lagu ni.
okay so currently listening to me too by meghan while a lil bit dancing choreography by siapa tah laki tu dia cam lembut sikit ha! kevin shin on 1 million dance studio! hoyeah i suka choreo lagu tu by him a lil bit sexy lol kay dah tukar to something like this by chainsmoker.
okay then i kena maintain la jugak this body so i decide to dancing everytime and searching for an awesome choreography dekat youtube so i learn and learn banyak jugaklah i dapat and literally boleh make ur body more wow okay . like the same lah as zumba fitness but i more like to dancing to the best beating song afterall. so 1 million dance studio are one of my favourite. kyle hanagami, matt steffanina, tim miligram? not sure the spelling but yeah not all lah their choreograph some of them yang best lah. and then hoyeah am listening to meaning of life by kelly clarkson! dude if u know me u dont know how much im so adoring to the people who got head voice!
like ariana grande , kelly clarkson, jessi j, taeyeon, beyonce their high note are si incredibly amazing! homai u literally got goosebumps everytime u hear they singing!
u show me love u lift me up u take me higher and higher the truth yes im in love can u feel love u take me higghherrrrrrrrrrrr lol can u hear me screamin that part? u better not or ur ear goin to explode lol i hope not oh yes its from meaning of life by kelly clarkson.
and then dekat hostel dulu i bukan belajar tau! i dancing! like oh im listening to ride by twenty one pilot dude i like this song! im falling so im taking on ma rideeeeee . and sambung tadi i always dancing! i pernah dancing lagu kpop jugak infront of my friends like they always ask me zara nak tengok kau menari lagi so i show lah my skill but please take note jugakla im not so professional lol im just dancing because its my hobby i taktahu since when. but it is so fun when u practise and practise sampai u mahir the choreography kan pastu u just dancing with all ur heart u can be so awesome dude! u never know how thats feel. oh im so love to dance!
but then bukan lagu kpop je lagipun i tahu sikit je kpop im more into english song dancing! like a ll the choreographer i mention tadi kalau diorang punya choreography tu best i belajar lah apa lagi lol! okay lah i ada banyak lagi nak cerita but then dah panjang sangat plus i tak solat zohor lagi! dah pukul 3 mashaAllah zara.
so i chou dulu kalau ada salah apa apa or a lil bit show off or a lil bit amnoying above itu sebab i tak solat lagi latu okay guys bye im off u la la
love, zara
So right now am currently on the bed with ma headphone on while playing dont by Ed sheeran, dude thats an old song ! bruh i don ker as long as i can grooving kbye.
So actually i was currently suffering but not so suffered from chicken pox? eww thats gross! ya ya with all the scars iknow i got it but dude they goin to get away from ur body too soon okay! dont worry i also consume shaklee so got no probs at all and also im goin to have an appointment with klinik hana soon
okay change right now am currently enjoy to im in love with the cocoa by hitimpulse. actually im a bit impressed wif this song like youre in love with the cocoa and u make that as a song while the music video is a bit awkward like standing while holding the cocoa lol
okay back to the topic . im goin to have an appointment with klinik hana at wangsa maju soon to fix the scars on my face like clear it off lol maybie on this wednesday am not so sure . i actually nak pergi tadi dude but then mom said takpayah takpayah im like so frustrated like i dah siap pun haih
haih my life. im like currently having a crush on everyone like wheres my true love actually hiding? like sampai bila u nak crush crush everywhere zara. u should start thinking bout ur future life now zara. ohmy.
okayokay im listening to perfect by ed sheeran now. homagad u never know how im soooo in love wif this song! oh every girls love it! u know what?! i nak use this song for my wedding okay! but then fattzura dah steal it from me!!! like everytime i hear this song im a lil bit teringat dekat fattah wedding like yeah i pernah je minat jugak fattah amin tu even orang kata muka dia jambu lol but then they have to use my song as their wedding song!! so sad ohmalife . itsokay
i ada lagu lain you are my reason by calum scott! okay im gonna use this song for my wedding soon hoyeh! but am gonna use perfect jugak fer my wedding song nanti lol. hokay!
back to the topic. i nak pergi klinik hana tu nak buat treatment and then goin okay wait now im listening to electric kiss by exo. oh i love their beat . again! dude dahlah concert dierang sabtu ni make sure u strong ur heart firstttt bcs please accept the fact that ur not goin! okay okay im trying okay change the song please. okay now lost in japan by shawn but its my alarm song so i feel a bit sleepy haha sokay am not gonna change it .
so after goin to klinik hana oh u can find them on instagram @klinikhana they r so best lah! so after am goin to hop onto cinema? watching incredible? babe i na tengok skyscraper dude that therock berlakon! my bae since childhood wwe bro! no lah i mean hello i can buat kening angkat satu macam dia selalu buat okay! like my childhood even ask me everytime weh buat mata therock weh so i always lah show off kay okay sekarang it was IDGAF by dualipa bruh that song are the best kot like the lyrics so win! u say ur sorry but its too late now so save it get gone shut up! lol thats my favorite .
but then skycraper show dekat sunway putra mall on this thursday dude im goin to start working on that day!
so i takdapat la nak tengok skyscraper tu i guess. then i maybie jalanjalan dekat sunway mall je after. makesure to get that ice caramel macchiato ofcourse! but then i forgot la sunway ada startbuck tak? i lupa weh lama i tak keluar what a lady . so okay bosan pulak lagu ni.
okay so currently listening to me too by meghan while a lil bit dancing choreography by siapa tah laki tu dia cam lembut sikit ha! kevin shin on 1 million dance studio! hoyeah i suka choreo lagu tu by him a lil bit sexy lol kay dah tukar to something like this by chainsmoker.
okay then i kena maintain la jugak this body so i decide to dancing everytime and searching for an awesome choreography dekat youtube so i learn and learn banyak jugaklah i dapat and literally boleh make ur body more wow okay . like the same lah as zumba fitness but i more like to dancing to the best beating song afterall. so 1 million dance studio are one of my favourite. kyle hanagami, matt steffanina, tim miligram? not sure the spelling but yeah not all lah their choreograph some of them yang best lah. and then hoyeah am listening to meaning of life by kelly clarkson! dude if u know me u dont know how much im so adoring to the people who got head voice!
like ariana grande , kelly clarkson, jessi j, taeyeon, beyonce their high note are si incredibly amazing! homai u literally got goosebumps everytime u hear they singing!
u show me love u lift me up u take me higher and higher the truth yes im in love can u feel love u take me higghherrrrrrrrrrrr lol can u hear me screamin that part? u better not or ur ear goin to explode lol i hope not oh yes its from meaning of life by kelly clarkson.
and then dekat hostel dulu i bukan belajar tau! i dancing! like oh im listening to ride by twenty one pilot dude i like this song! im falling so im taking on ma rideeeeee . and sambung tadi i always dancing! i pernah dancing lagu kpop jugak infront of my friends like they always ask me zara nak tengok kau menari lagi so i show lah my skill but please take note jugakla im not so professional lol im just dancing because its my hobby i taktahu since when. but it is so fun when u practise and practise sampai u mahir the choreography kan pastu u just dancing with all ur heart u can be so awesome dude! u never know how thats feel. oh im so love to dance!
but then bukan lagu kpop je lagipun i tahu sikit je kpop im more into english song dancing! like a ll the choreographer i mention tadi kalau diorang punya choreography tu best i belajar lah apa lagi lol! okay lah i ada banyak lagi nak cerita but then dah panjang sangat plus i tak solat zohor lagi! dah pukul 3 mashaAllah zara.
so i chou dulu kalau ada salah apa apa or a lil bit show off or a lil bit amnoying above itu sebab i tak solat lagi latu okay guys bye im off u la la
love, zara