Long Time No Update

Praises be to God, the Almighty for every blessings that He bestow upon me. 

Currently halfway finishing my internship at MAIWP, Kuala Lumpur. 

Duration around 3 month starting from 21 March 2022 until 8 July 2022. 

updates;

study - 

Degree in Quranic Studies with Multimedia at USIM place me under Unit Prasekolah,

Bahagian Pembangunan Insan MAIWP as an intern for 3 months ++. 

Just got the offer letter to further Master at IIUM on course Human Sciences in Psychology. 

Intake around September. Classes will start on October 2022.  

But lets not get to that part yet,

After finishing the intern, requiring me to gather Full Transcript and Completion Letter and send to email : pgadmission@iium.

so this courses that i will be taking take 2 years=4 semesters . 

but hear me out, Alhamdulillah InshaAllah for finally i get to study at my dream university!? 

on the courses that i love the most? i mean beside law and medical of course but ok....so so grateful

i mean of course i have to take prerequisite subject bcs of my degree but

bismillah may Allah ease my journey in learning and understanding thus mastering this knowledge. 

for this i decide to apply for a job bcs of the part time study mode. 

feelings:

im so scared but is it really happening !?

hey ya peeps

How you've been doing so far?

It's still MCO season. well, I got an article that needs to be published. Nah, JK. I mean an assignment needs to be finished. Oh yeah, It's Thirteen Ramadan already! 

I've been reading lots during this MCO besides just sleeping all day. I mean Ebooks. Know what, I caNt still moving o0n with the fact that I've left all my NEW lovEly novels at the rental house! yeah, some letters caps lock I am aware that it just shows how badly I can't let it slide.

mygad I badly need to go back just for the sake of saving my books from freakin'-spider-web! 

Besides, I can't live without 'em. I need to organize some to be put on my bookshelf I mean, I have to tidy up my room while doing that. oh well, I'm tuning in with Blue's song All rise! gad Lee Ryan is just so charming but hey he already got kids but he said marriage is not for him and I mean David Beckham was my longtime-crush mygad just loves watching his family! I mean Romeo Beckham got his looks while Brooklyn the eldest one copied from their lovely mom, VB! what spectacular fam. I wish I have it also one day but, I don't want to be involved with married I know really well bout my current state so Nah ok put that aside why I'm talking bout this? what I've been talking bout before? oh yeah, so i'm currently reading ;

 

Yeah, it's a fiction. Sometimes I just want to chill and relax with some fantasy stories so why not. But, I prefer to read lots of Non-Fiction books in order to really help build my own self cause' I know how good(opposite to terrible) I am, with some genres of; 

self-help. self-development, psychology, mental toughness books, psychiatrist-related, and much more!  Here are some of the LIST OF BOOKS I DESPERATELY NEED TO BUY on my save Books Instagram feed;

             

Some of them that I already bought but DINT MANAGE TO GRAB AND READ yEt; i mean EveN just ONE ;

12 Rules For Life, it was from one of my favorite bookstagram's recommendations, @alexandbooks_ . I will try to review this book when I got time later okay?

ANd Some That I ThINK WHat I neEd To bUy First beside 12 rules for life:

 

Yeah how WeLL I Wish I GOt more money to buy them all. I've been thinking of finding some part-time job during this MCO since the rules have already been loosened a bit so why not. I think it's just going to be my thoughts and not action LOL I mean I don't know yet pRay For ME 

yeah well, I think that just all. gtg fam! 

shalala, 

Z.

............

it comes again. 

i thought i can keep my mouth shut, 

but No . i never know how to

The toxic things. I don't know. I hate it. but i think i will never know how to get out from them.

The surrounding of my mind, my heart, brain, body, 

it's all toxic. Darkside of me. 

 why?

i never know how to save or even restrain myself from them. 

every now and then whenever something just keeping my nerves bursting out, i will never know how to restrain it or even keep my mouth shut

i just it was toxic

so damn toxic

i hate it so much 

it just happens to me that i cant know how to endure this feeling or somewhat called be patient relax and calm No. its not me i don't know i really hate this i just 

when this thing gonna end? 

please 

i hate for how long ever it still be in here. 

i don't deserve this. 

my friends, family, they will be gone forever if i keep this toxic dark side inside. 

bleh, i never have them in the first place.

THIS. ALL THIS. 

I HATE THIS

PLEASE

tell me how to let it out and go far away 

New beginning. New

So alhamdulillah today finally im back to the new semester.  New environment but just the same me, nothing new but hopefully new to more on the positive vibes.

Class for this semester begin this tuesday September 10th. So got to chill out this two days left . All the things ready, but need to buy more things as usual for the class. Yup i live in the new house too. New people around me . Maybe that is why i said new environment? 

When people ask me why I didn’t stick with the same people as to why im not living with the old housemates or why I didn’t stay around with people that’s same course or anything sorts of questions like these all . 

Well. I just like something new. I mean, i want to be surround with new people, I cannot just be with the same people even though how much i love certain same people, i just i want to try something new. I think i like new things and just see how that gonna turns out to be. Cant help the nervous/paranoia/trust issue/expectations to be left out but that is what i want to push away from. 

Admit it though. I am scared, idk. Nervous i think? Even i loves being alone and prefer being like a survivor, i just can’t help the feelings of fear. I sometimes can’t figure what I’m most afraid of, thought i know but I can’t want to know or even let it slide in my mind i know i just need to push it out. 

Because i know, everything is never going to be easy, i just have to and will come thru it, and most of all i know i can handle them and i will. 

4.08am, september 7th. 

longest time ever

So it has been a long time since I write. Nah

So if anybody ever asks me How ive been doing,

well you know- loss of hope, bored, nothing happens, playing with sissy, my cats, movie marathon of CW which is the vampire diaries of 8seasons 171 episodes, and the originals of 5 seasons which is 92 episodes, and legacies which still season one of 16 episodes and upcoming season 2 will be this october which is i cant wait, dive into wattpad, scaring of new semester, new environment, a new beginning, new surrounding, well
- Im fine :)

SO. how yours?
well i still got so many more things to buy, do, yet i dont know and dont have any idea what it is .

okay m starting to get bored really quick. just hoping to not lose hope, motivate and keep going.

nice, Z

Be Real

Peeps//

when they said things like, 

nah what? how can you? do you do that? oh really? 

and all like sort of that thing. 

you know what, actually. 

You CAN ignore all of that saying. 

All the negativity that they throw at you. 

be that your achievement, your talks, your ugliness, your innocent thing. 

if they want to talk bad about you, 

LET THEM BE.

cause what? because 

you don't deserve to wasting your time to be in the Bad, Evil, Cruel situations in Your Own Life. 

Just Be YOU. Be Real. Be Motivated. Be Inspiring. 

Don't bother on what people gonna say about you, about the things you talk, what you wear, what you do.

Just be the better version of YOUrself .
and always in Introspection mood ✅ 😎

cool,
Z

old days

btw I don't know which one to choose thou. WordPress?  blogger?

there's this one time in the middle of editing this blog I took a turn writing in the WordPress instead but then it's not the best bcs I can't seem to know how to customize their theme . at last get back to the old way then. lol 😆 

gosh this blog was created since May 2013 for real. I gotta edit the part where my words got cringy-thingy like lmao

like the old post back then in 2014. when I read them back, wow I gotta say that I'm impressed wif ma words. it was the nicest words ever lol so I got to edit a lil bit to make it better for not so cringe-post but then I just gotta left some . haha! 

wow feel absolute amazed gotta see how I grow up! I mean the self-development thingy, yeah

watta memories! that post got so many views, 

wow. 

I know why thou. when I was 18 back then, I was in the middle of searching about this interview experience too on google , but there's not much and I was sad, anxious to face the interview without the clue people should post on the internet, and so when it comes to my times, I decided that I'm gonna write it! MY experience with the interview back then for that diploma at that place, hoping the same thing which is to help others who get the interview too next time!


nothing more to say,  

Z

FANSURI

Bruh 


semalam training after isyak sampai pukul 12.30. sampai rumah pukul 1. tidur nak dekat pukul 3 .

training semalam masa nak balik tu tiba tiba rasa macam ada benda tertinggal. 
Kaki tertinggal maigod. i cant feel anything lol
pastu cikgu pun kata itulah menari hahaha (sakit satu badan)

bruh im so happy lol actually we practise untuk santapan diraja majlis konvo nanti. tapi certain je untuk show and yang lain tu untuk latihan , yang latihan tu nanti akan buat tarian lain untuk another show pulak .

so basically warm up  kitorang zapin melayu . so semalam dah belajar sampai bunga empat. weh cikgu said to me time tengah menari tu(muka i always happy when dancing) "ha cantik makngah. tempo jaga" hhahhahah lol cikgu panggil semua makngah pahal lol kelako

cikgu cakap aku dapat dah cuma tempo jaga lebih kepada musik je haha . oh if ya know beat dia tu ada rentak rentak dia 2 3 4 camtu . so kena ikutlah tempo tu untuk setiap step tarian tu. eh pening 

ha pastu dah practise bila dah dapat tu en pergh i cant explain perasaan happy eksaitiod tu camner lol. 

cikgu kitorang lelaki macam pangkat ayah ayah tu but he said to us "still single u know " haha n we laughed . he said tak sempat masa untuk his private life tu . he is international choreo, satu negara dia dah pergi, canada finland and all lah. 

we feel so eksaited lah he become our jurulatih tarian weeeeeee

he said to all of us time menari tu cuba senyum ni tak nak muntah aku tengok muka masam je lenggokkan badan tu kalau tak macam pokok kayu je hahhhahah

 i memang senyum sentiasa bila menari tu dari awal i masuk cikgu tu tengok je i sbb i cam happy bila menari tu kan pastu i ada terdengar he said to someone "ha tengok" camtu lah bout me 

tapi yang penting engko janganle senyum manjang cam kambing engko kena pandai cari part mana yang engko patut senyum n tak 

eh ha alah macam matsalleh punya choreo tu reaction muka diorang time dancing win teroxs. rasa cam puas hati gila bila dorang dancing wif reaction tu

pastu cik amud tu nanti nak buat zumba and all lah and yang penting everything is about dancinggggggggggggggg huwaaaaaaa i wanna cry i love it so much!

pastu kitorang punya club ni called as FANSURI. ada abang senior tu pun ajar kitorang jugak . and semalam time dia ajar dia gelakkan gue sebab stokin licin. pastu mengato cakap stokin licin eh . suka sangat weh sakat kitorang tapi fun lah dia ajar haha tapi part gelak memang tak boleh cover . okaiiiii 

nanti untuk show kitorang ni tarian saman nama dia, asal from acheh. tarian ni dia pergerakan kepala tangan . kaki tak kaki duduk macam tahiyat awal tu tapi flat sikit lol . 
for me i biasa je tarian ni sebab dia ta ada pergerakan kaki. i more like suka all body movement punya tarian haha . tapi bes sebab macam robot kot tarian tu. engko kena sharp gila . hahhaahah 


im looking for moreeeeeeee dancing class in da future weee 
okbai. 

chillin

hey its 11.01 pm here.

i just finished ICT assignment . lol later then, english. After that will be ethnic and then ugh i loveeeeee assignment. 

wut? fun okai. lol

so i guess maybie this time im counting the time and days for a yeah *shrugging 

got any plan on what to do eh after that. but i seriously cant wait to watchhhhhhhh seriously after watch the trailer kan pergh 

amazed.

jap sekarang ni i is tak sabar nak midsem break yaknow

lol. actually whats on my mind kan.

one of my bestfriend from diploma year, dia orang brunei. she ni baik gila bagus gila tak sombong humble . tapi orang yang tak kenal dia or first time nampak dia will say something like "eee kerek gila dia ni sombong nya" but no bro sis shes not. 

pastu lagi satu dia ni memorize quran. like water flowing. pastu brunei ni specialize for rakyat diorang yang hafiz quran so she one of em. every month she will balik to brunei to involve lah dalam competition , what so special is their king will give money to em so every month she got around 3k bnd i guess. ya know f***** damn rich kalau convert to myr then! lol

she ni bukan kawan kawan i yang jenis orang agama je tak bercampur dengan orang or close mind or pakaian close ke apa but she ni jenis cam kita kita yang gamble yang orang tak dapat agak and tahu pun shes hafizah yaknow.

and then she ni photogenic , selalu sangat belanja orang. kalau apa apa kan dia yang hulur duit pastu bila orang nak bayar balik she tak mintak pun or like she tak ada pun suruh bayar hutang ke apa she is so nice. i mean contoh kalau kita kita, even rm 50 pun mintak balik kan but shes nah, she didnt mind at all . the fact that shes one year younger than us and so mature thats the point.

and then she met someone , senior kat diploma tempat i belajar, kos sama macam dia. if im not mistaken, they hving a relay since shes sem satu. i often saw them met or date lah outside campus. selalu lah jumpa and lepak together. lelaki malaysia lah. and then, sampai last sem. so sweet meh. tak silap i diorang siap travel sekali kot pergi UK. 

tapi, haih. 

sayangnya. jodoh diorang tak panjang. 

idk what happen but diorang nak ke arah yang serius that is marriage babe. 

actually lelaki tu ada a bit probs lah dengan ayah dia, macam hubungan anak and ayah tu bermasalah , so my friend worried, asking him kalau tak selesai masalah ni, macam mana nak kahwin. 

so idk. they just proceed their relay, i think macam relay tu tak serius, even kawan i ni nampak la dia sangat serius, sebab normal lah brunei girl kahwin awal. so she think mybie habis diploma she nak kahwin. thats it, but that guy idk what tapi he pun serious je tapi idk idk idk.

after that. habis diploma. turn out, she got married with another guy. that is more mature than the guy before, i am so damn wondering bout 

how she handle this situation . u know, all the memories yang diorang dah build together dulu , hilang macamtu je. yang diingatkan dia jodoh, tapi sebenarnya bukan. 

bukan dia jodoh kita. idk how dia handle her heart broken situation weh, i sebenarnya tengok gambar wedding dia kan, u look so happy with that gummy smile lookin at ur husband.

i feel so calm. idk how she handle this. she really is a strong woman . 

seriouslah i rasa sebak sebab i ada dengan dia masa diorang both in sweet relay, date and all. but then turn out they not mean to be together. kau rasa? 

aku nak je pergi brunei, dah lama sangat nak jumpa dia. sedih weh. entahlah. kalau i kat tempat dia i gila taktahu duh nak hadap macam mana paham tak. heartbroken gila 

yelah bila kita ingat dia tu jodoh kita, tapi sebenarnya dia bukannnnnn , yang selama ni kita jumpa, kita build memories together, tapi sebenarnya dia jodoh orang lain. 

sedih / this is y im so scared to build a relationship. tak sanggup nak hadap hari hari yang orang kita sayang tu bukan kita punya. sedih. sometimes i susah nak having a relay sebab i have a trust issue, i susah nak percaya. 

kawan i kalau nak story pasal relay diorang dekat i , i mesti akan bg nasihat yang something macam bash lelaki tu, i will always cakap, takpayah tinggal je dia bukan untuk kau bla bla that make lelaki tu salah sebenarnya and all. and see turn out its true. i know that already. this is why i hate man. no, i mean idk how to handle a man. i, haih

im just scared

sleepy

okay im so sleepy . its 11.30 pm

fuh watta a day todai . weekend tak rasa macam weekend , normal lah for new student kan, senior sibuk buat programs awal awal ni. harini ahad and pagi tadi pukul 8 en we went swimming .

me from takut donno bout swimming and tak relax to now i know atleast a bit meh .

mainpoint is RELAX & LEARN TAHAN NAFAS LAMA .

ehem yeah. bila hang panic hang akan tenggelam. kira kalau nak swim pun i make sure kolam tu sampai lah kaki kan, tak sampai mampuih. kena belajo pulak cara nak seimbangkan badan bila berdiri dalam air yang kaki tak sampai. ha paham tak lol

adik adik ni yang ajar i swim, dalam 3 jam macamtu i boleh lah sikit sikit. thing is i tak boleh lagi nak tahan nafas lama , and kena relax . and tak tenggelam lepas dah swim tu .
and kaki kena laju and tangan tu kena bukak untuk tolak air tu lagi .

and sampai sekarang lah tangan ni sakittt sia mashaallah nak angkat tiak pun i kennot.
so sad.


esok kelas start 2pm lucky me. hehe

how kan dekat certain place, situation, people yang,  ada u boleh keluarkan perangai u and ada yang u takboleh nak keluarkan. like u simpan n bila u simpan tu yang u sakit gak ah sebab u rasa terkongkong n rasa bukan diri u n takdapat nak keluarkan paham tak?

(6.45pm tuesday 2oct)

sebab bila u keluarkan u cam takut side effect dia . takut orang pijak, tak hormat u or think like u immature or something yang  rasa negative lah. tu lah masalahnya, u tend to think d negative side yang give u bad effect fam tak yeah its your mind problem actually, yourself that surrounding wif negativitiy

BUT u rasa tak freedom ish tak besnya tak dapat nak have fun, be funny silly crazy and just be you. instead you need to cover em all ugh hate it.

no u cam nak keluarkan urself punya silly perangai tu tau tapi u cant faham tak. and u cam boleh keluarkan bila u dengan orang tertentu je, like some of your friends,

kadang kan i sampai terfikir nak pergi kerja sekejap dekat fos dulu tu sebab i nak myself balik n i nak keluarkan fam tak. lol

i cam dah tak kenal i siapa sebenarnya. im not a serious person okay. i mean like i ni bukan jenis serious faham tak i ni annoying type and awkward type but silly and crazy but so cliche and sometimes clingy friends. oh hate that clingy thing but yeah

clingy is like mengada right okay

sometimes kan i hate myself. myself yang bila small matter pun i rasa cam nak marah tapi lepastu i okay and lepastu lagi i akan jadi terfikir balik so i automatik jadi nak marah balik and dah lamaaa camtu sikit je i akan sejuk balik. oh rumitnya perempuan, nah it just me maybe.

maybie the fact that i ni low self confidence maybie yea.
pastu bila i marah lepastu mesti rasa nak menangis ish benci gilaaa jadi perempuann kau paham takkkkkkkk
kbai.

eh kejaplah taknak bai lagi ha lepastu kan i nak lepaskan stress i ni boleh tak

i nak nangisssss umiiiiiiiiiii

ok i is 22 ok i need to behave like twenty f two . grow up dude! tsk tsk

Praises to الله for everythings

 Oh yeah its 1.31 a.m and am currently updating ya ya.

guess what?

finally after almost 7 months waiting, i get to futher my studies ! yeah its a bit too late for my age, like some of my friends already second year and all .

but there’s no such thing la like lambat sangat dah nak continue degree like hello education tu everytime boleh , oh my course take 4 years , i hope i can shorten em but don’t know yet tengoklah ,

but for now all i wanna say is thankyou so much for all the things that had happened, happening in my life now.

setiap benda berlaku tu ada hikmahnya. so i selalu fikir, mungkin kerja sementara ni dapat banyak benefit for myself, like seriously make me be more confident, act and try be more responsible, independent, understanding and trying to endure every consequences. how to react to everything, and banyaklah.

tak semestinya belajar je kita dapat belajar , from work also we can learn so many things!
i can see that i be more confident now like so different from zaman dulu , and i realise that الله want me to experience other things first and be more experienced !

no matter lah what job u get yourself into but from there u can learning okay

yeah forgot to mention that i get USIM , course Bachelor of Quranic studies with Multimedia , just simple 💁🏻‍♀️ dont wanna make it complicated, but suitable with my diploma course before that is syariah courses, i plan to take degree in law instead and actually before this awal dulu i ada apply kos  syariah and undang-undang dekat UIA , and i actually terpilih to come for the interview, and guess what?

i tak. i mean i sedar lambat dah, i tak cek pun . tarikh dah terlepas. i guess like dua or tiga minggu late, i was chosen datang iv untuk kos law dekat UIA tu dude tapi tulah i cek lambat sangat and sedar sedar melepas , sedih nak manpus. tapi that just interview an, belum tentu i will be chosen . tapi tulah, tak ada rezeki. redha is the best way to calm yourself down.

so frustrated. and after that i try try and try. sampailah macam wasting my time so i apply kerja. work as teacher like for a short time then decided to apply another job so yeah. reason i quit being a teacher? or more like the students there called me ustazah, the reason?
because i rasa tak manpu lagi nak mengajar even just darjah satu dua n tiga lol

so i , quit.

sooo from end of disember till now currently at f.o.s lah . sumpah banyak benda belajar . like seriously, and so grateful and thankful to Him . for all these experiences, like im so thankful thank you so much feel like crying pun ada like okay lama lama kita boleh fikir hikmah tu semua .

like time tu kita nak sambung belajar, tapi takdapat, pujuk diri not my time yet, still need to learn more things, be more matured , like , okay i will get through this. i know Allah’s plan so incredible. i got this.

yeah, u always need to motivate yourself! trying hard to be positive. and positive .
doa doa doa. oh please dont ever mention that word, that is giving up. dont you ever dare to do so!

so now, after wait, cry, pray, almost give up, cry , pray, wait,

I berjaya. All i wanna say is thankyousomuchdearAllah 💕

so i register nanti 4 september, i resigned from work this 17th august, i balik kampung 22 august raya haji, i gaji 31 august. i daftar 4 september .


so 31 august i maybe servicing braces, face treatment *ifgotextramoneylolihopeso , then buying some things , . maybe kalau free pun after that and before 3 september i guess . so i will just take a nap lah sepuasnya if got no other plan , yeah.

i still have a long joirney ahead of me  . pray for me,  make your parents proud of you so you can be more proud of yourself after 💕 ,

2.08 a.m , 2th august

just

Well this world is full of toxic people. We cant trust people , people are human. Human = human .
Sometimes we tend to think that this world is not a safe place anymore. Sometimes we think that we cant even trust ourselves. Hm. Sometimes .

So, that is mm just whats on my mind thinking what lah kan like this year so much had happened. So much worse. We are living in 2018 . Its not weird anymore, if we look at other side. I mean the world nearly gonna end soon . That got everyone goosebumps .

Actually im more like to speaking when im talking or more like typing about what im thinking.  Because mindset thinking that i can deliver what is on my mind when i tend to speak other than my language. Even it got so much grammatical errors. I don’t mind as long as i can deliver my thoughts.

Lol. Sometimes maybe because the effect of me always reading romantic cliche romance novel , i mean english novel. Because it such a waste of my time reading malay novel. I mean so boring. So i decide to read english novel in order to improve my english too , right? Not just from a freaking thick book . Sometimes i always read them from phone also , wattpad app. So why not, we can learn everywhere. From watching english movie also even they got so much yeah yano(you know) . So from there i actually can learn and so much i can get . Not just the language, ofcourse.

Bruh, even from korean drama also can make me learn their language . Lol. Like literally the basic one, we can sometimes learning at the same time like no matter what we do, we can learn from there.
No matter where we are, what surrounds us, we can learn.

Thats pretty much bout it. Always, learn and learning .

So right now my mind thinking, how to be more matured?
People said, you can get more matured from the experience. That is so correct. That is so true.

But right now what i mean is, macam mana eh nak matang? Even my supervisor said that i tak matang. People around me even said the same thing. I dont know maybe from how i react, act, solve probs, or just me?

SV comment all the staff at my working place they all younger . Than me. But then I am the one who act more childish. Not seem like my age. Not serious. Always playing around. I, i just dont know.
And she even said maybe because i am the happy go lucky person so she let it go . But then what is the matter about that?

Aku taktahulah. For me i think, nak act matang at my work place tu, like tak senyum like be so serious all the time. Like thats not me at all. Kalau tak senyum it would be sooo freaking worse, awkward and at the same time i akan feeling so guilty. Like tak gelak sekali dengan lawak adik adik kat situ i feel like not fun at all. So i join lah kan dorang have fun playing around enjoy together, but benda tu pun dicop tak matang eh and childish? lol

So sv will call me and be mad telling me  i am the one who lebih tua so tunjuk like your age around them, be more serious so they can follow me be serious. Im like , for work ofcourse you have to be serious. But then like talking laughing pun hm. I dont know maybie just i assuming so much .

But then kan, it is true that i tak matang pun. Like i cant be ready for everything. Yet.
Aku sendiri rasa yang aku ni tak matang lagi. Even aku ni dah dua puluh dua, tahun depan dua puluh tiga, empat. Taktahu bila matang tu nak sampai.

I am not ready for everything. I am not worthy for everyone or better yet, someone .
But i kakak in my family, i am the eldest so from there i can act more responsible or more matured as a sister to my siblings. But from others, or my surrounding. I can’t.

I don’t know how. hm tired of thinking . Overthinking. Super thinking.
So i guess for now, let just try to be more responsible. Try to be yourself . Bring yourself to the more positive side . Look around you, and start thinking what you can do from there.

Aku taktahulah aku merepek apa but thats what im saying to myself. Motivating myself .
Motivate yourself first so you can motivate people around you. Be more loving, supportive, and nice?

Yeah . Be more matured.


Love, zara 💕

Ready or Nah?

Well, Hello there.

well currently right now imma listening to romantic songs playlist oh so cliche
right here waiting for you well thats an old song , bosan pulaktu slow idontlikeit much but then the lyrics cam best.

so yeah what i talked about on my last post , cabaran eh? well not so cabar sangat. just get surrounded with new people and new hmm yeah everything new. so,

okay wait hmm what i am bout to story is these things already passed so nothing got related to me anymore including feeling and etc.

so bila kau dah start kerja, ofcourse lah u aim for the best kan. so u do your work with so much sincere and honesty and all. yeah u get to know more friends . and you realize again that hooman ni banyak ragam and macam macam kan.

so then the best part is when you get to know more chinese friends, from all different races lah kan. most of them are so nice, crazy silly and all like seriously love them. but then, the worst part is when u kena marah dengan orang atas. like me, i selalu kena marah dengan assistant lelaki tu , i mean he nice. but then when he start to get angry at u haih u dont know what else u can do.

like he want everything to be perfect. no mistake at all, well biasalah kerja kan. he so annoying but then it was my mistake afterall. and then pernah i macam tak layan after kena marah tu, buat buat saiko lah kan *well im such a bad ass , pastu dia panggil then i buat macam malas nak layan , then dia rasa tercabar lah kan. well fact bout me : i tak boleh kena tegur *such a worse tapi i cuba to get rid of that weakness of me i will try *sigh

and then dia cam bengang lah kan, dia panggil i. i pun pergi lah dekat dia , at first i buat muka kerek, arm crossed bukan cekak pinggang tapi arm crossed lol, like u peluk urself tu then dia tanya i kenapa apa semua, bla bla bla and then i okay first lah, i nak cakap yang i tak suka lelaki marah. like who are they nak marah marah *i mean not include my family lah , and then lagi lagi ni pulak stranger marah i kan lol takdelah stranger, my boss jugak *assistant lah, and then sebabtu i macam bengang jugak , dia ingat dia lelaki dia boleh nak marah marah perempuan sukati ? camtu? and then yelah kan, sebabtu i act kerek tu first first , then

after dia dah cakap cakap kan, i pun cam, okay i salah, i patut hormat dia, n dia cakap dia marah bukan saja saja n then tu pun salah i jugak n then, i takboleh kalau kena tegur plus kena marah kan soooo i pun ternangis depan dia, yelah after all u need to lower your ego right? so i pun nangis lah, and then i pun mintak maaf lah semua n then pastu dia cakap apa tau, dia cakap, äbang pun nak berair mata dah tengok zara nangis , i pun cam lollll tapi memang betul pun mata dia berair i nampak hahahha lawak la . and then i just minta maaf dekat dia and all then done,

start from that lah i start to work more like serious. i pun cam okay bila ada orang yang boleh encourage u to work more serious be honest like macam okay automatic u punya mindset pun macam okay aku kena kerja betul betul kalau tak kena marah or more like bila ada orang macam tu or u surrounded wif people like that, u akan be more like terpengaruh untuk work harder.

like kalau u surrounded wif people that is main main bila buat kerja, u pun akan be main main bila kerja kan ? ha camtu . so sekarang bila dia dah pindah to branch lain i pun cam tenang jugak lol but at the same time, i rasa macam dah tak serious dah bila buat kerja, like banyak salah. sebelum ni kalau dia ada , kalau salah banyak lah dia ajar but now macam dah takde benda tu so i be more like i buat i punya kerja u buat u punya kerja like dah tak more harder like always lah .

but then, i update mindset balik, okay i need to be more independent,  kerja ikhlas and be more serious like always. lol

so thats a pit pat bout my work life, supervisor i tu indian woman . dia ni memang serious lah. like siapa yang nak kerja kat tempat i tu kan, actually u cannot borak at all. do your work . like bosan kan? tapi i ni bukan ikut rules sangat . so i be like always trying to make a silly joke when im with her. like banyak borak dengan supervisor i tu, pastu dia bukan jenis gelak or senyum sangat , tapi bila dia gelak time i borak ngan dia tu i rasa cam appreciated lah kan.

then ada satu masa tu, dia cakap u ni kan zara, i rasa u orang pertama dekat fos ni ,
cantik, rajin tapi jahat. u nakal tau , *banyak salah and all pastu dia cakap tulah nakal nakal pun tapi kalau kerja u buat okay takpe tapi ni kalau u buat salah pun takboleh jugak. lol n then i kan selalu main main , dia pun cakap to me , : i tak boleh nak buat apa sebab u punya attitude memang jenis happy go lucky so, *shrugging lol

pastu sometimes tu muka dia memang jenis serious tau sometimes i pun jadi affected macam aduh muka miss serious mesti mood dia tak okay i pun cam nak buat kerja pun takde mood lol. but then dia kata muka i memang macamnilah. lol tapi i tak boleh jugak nak terima bila orang muka serious serious ni haha.

i pun lagi tak boleh dengan orang muka serious, garang, bengis semua. i automatik akan takde mood bila jumpa orang macamtu lol. so please always smiling people. sebab aku pun jenis senyum punya orang .

so em, about feelings dekat staff sana ? well ill continue later.bye peeps.

love, zara :)

My work not so work life

I suggest here that please read post sebelum ni before u read this one or u wont get a full story bout ma life lol.

Assalammualaikum afterall.

So before i continue on my work journey, i nak story sikit bout my diploma life lah . currently listening to nervous by shawn mendes. so i guess diploma life is not so bad but so sad emotional and alone. like every night im crying bila teringat zaman my worse childhood memories.

hahaha . when u twenty, u start to thinking bout everything starting from ur parents. ur childhood memories.

u know what. when u growing up, u start to know and saw a lil not so bit bout ur parents attitude, your siblings life, and how ur childhood turns to. im the eldest afterall. so memang cabaran lah kan. so im crying everynight on ma bed 🛏 time i diploma dulu . haha what a sad life. and i tak pernah pergi kaunseling. that was ma first time i guess . i kena pergi kaunseling , that kaunselor saiko i cerita . i pun tercerita lah. and he said im trauma . what a horrible life ive been living lah haha. and then i pun sedih , i taknak balik rumah. mom pujuk balik okay i balik. and then i pun have a slow talk wif mom bout dad in ma room crying and all. and then mom pujuk telling me that no one is perfect. i need to accept the weakness of the person i love even its so damn hard. and i okay. i try.

so that was a lil campak balik bout ma diploma life, how i growing up from that. afterall, u have to be strong, be independent, responsible and more positive thinking and never overthinking and ofcourse be more matured! you are twenty two zara .

okay and then my work life! so parents asked me pergi mengajar dekat mana mana sekolah sementara jap. lol and then i worked dekat sekolah agama intergrasi khaira country homes. lol u must be guessing they called me ustazah right? lol damn u right! so i start teaching kids darjah 1,2,3 what a life hahahaha. they called me ustazah fatimah hahahahah i always wanna laugh my ass off bila teringat balik. ustazah rockers here kids! lol ustazah ma ass. so im teaching there.

sekejap je, dalam 3 bulan? 4 ? weh kenapa tak ingat hahaha n then i decided to work dekat aeon. ayah so against me working here. but after discussing here and there finally i get to work here. u kno what i sampai cari kerja dekat mall area kl and thinking bout sewa a room . i got one though, aeon mall shah alam dekat butik and also i got to rent a room too dekat condo area situ but then, nah im not working there. far away from home.

so i kerja je lah dekat f.o.s aeon rawang ni. i rasa better dari jadi promoter dalam aeon lol. so alhamdulillah gaji not so bad afterall u need to work hard to achieve something right.  and then from working there i got so many experiences! from being so shy, not confident, i got my confidence back ! people always telling me like zara suka sangat senyum mesti murah rezeki selalu. i pun aminkan lol i pun taktahu kenapa i suka senyum! im so murah hati! dekat mana mana customer pun i senyum!

and then first time im working there, im so not confident to approach customer lelaki. weh i bukan berani sangat k. but then when im thinking that im working, so i beranikan diri jugak to approach. but! ada jugak customer kacau but they funny kay i pun takboleh jugak i mudah terhibur so i gelak je dorang buat kelaka haih i takboleh what a me .

so ada jugak customer tu selalu datang , second time dia datang, dia tanya awak dah kahwin belum? i kan tak sombong so i layan jela sambil buat kerja kang i tak layan nanti kata workers sombong well lagipun i tengah kerja kan so i layan la customer. pastu the berapa kali tah time dia datang, i jadi cashier time tu. dia nak pay, hahahaha i nak tegelak bila ingat balik.

i kan friendly , i pun cakap eh *macam buat buat kenal dia lah kan time dia nak bayar tu. at that time pulak supervisor dengan assistant ada kat sebelah i hahahah. so i just eh and then senyum and then weh, dia pun boleh pulak letak fon dia atas counter tu mintak number i hahahahahah i nak tergelak i taktahula pasal apa pastu i geleng geleng kepala je supervisor i dh pandang pandang assistant pun haha pastu i geleng geleng senyum je pastu dia cam ngeluh i cepat cepat buat pusing belakang and then dia blah hahahahahhaah . smpai sekarang i taknampak dah batang hidung dia weh haha.

tapi tulah cabaran lain datang. hahaha , but the best nya bila staff katsitu tak percaya bila i kata i dua puluh dua . dierang semua ingat i lapan belas weh baru lepas spm i pun apa lagi fefeeling muda lah kan. pernah i naik grab abang grab tu agak i umur berapa pun cakap i tingkatan berapa lagi hahaha the best of feeling younger lol. sebab fact i kecik kot, plus rendah hahahah. what a sad life .

and then banyak kali lah kan kena puji dengan customer said that i taknampak duapuluh langsung muka cam budakbudak so thats the best lah kan. lol tapi the worst nya bila i paling tua katsitu ada jugakla yang takhormat cam pijak kepala something tapi takdela kan mungkin perasaan i jekot.

haha and then , ha cabaran kerja katsitu? well sambung nanti.

love, zara 💕

A lil pit pat bout ma life

Hello what’s up? down? nah Assalammualaikum is the best way to start afterall.

right now am listening to never be the same by camilia , so anybody must be so curious hows my life goin after eighteen right? nah ma life are not so interesting at all. just a little ordinary here n there. weh what a language lah okay okay.

am listening to let me by zayn . so back to then . at the age of 16 i decide to change my journey.okay bosan pulak lagu ni so i change now to in case u miss me by matthew 😽 . in case u miss me i wont change ma number if u need someone to call. bruh . forget it .

okay so at the age if sixteen i decide to change my journey i take science stream before and i felt like i want to futher my arabic so i decided at that time science agama would be ma journey. so a lil bit nicekan diri while learning religious thing . lol kk rn am listening to heathens by twenty one pilot.

so that time i futher my form four n the rest dekat sekolah menengah kebangsaan sungai pusu. anddddd stay at hostel for the first time. bruh u dont know that homesick feeling is so sick. lol everytime my parents datang jenguk then time dorang nak balik i boleh pulak nak berair mata im so weak lah even im the eldest in my siblings. n then u know what u came from a not so religious background then dekat hostel tu some or maybie most of em are lil bit religious lah kan always like to judging seyh. like idk. im sick of people like that n sometimes i pun dah mcm dorang so im sick of maself.

and then thinking and thinking, well that time semua tak matang like biasalah teen age right? so im not so making friends sangat time dekat asrama dulu. im just like wif myself all the time. so dari situ lah kot i belajar be independent sikit weh betul ke camtu eja? watever lah tapi i be more like dah suka sorang sorang sampai sekarang like dah biasa . sampai orang pun cam whats wrong wif u? im like i dont need anyone in ma life i can be wif me all the time so dont bother lol.

but then u sedar yang u actually alone . but sometimes u rasa sometimes u tak u just let it go. hahaha. thats my life. sampai u pergi mall u makan sorang sorang hahahah but that another story haha. i mean afterall thats how it all affect my life watever lah i nak cakap yang semua tu lah bagi kesan macamni kat i sekarang . eh how so penin sangat my words? lol okay . haha dont wanna be so emo right now currently listening to havana by camilia ohyeah i hop my heart is in havana lol 😝

okay so after sampai spm lah. hahahhaah i pun taktahu kenapa i bodoh gila spm i teruk gila. maybie thats how my life affected me so far .

now am grooving to 24k magic bruno mars . what u tryin to do? 24karat magic in de air~

so after spm apply here n there. so sad upu not on ma side. i applied matriks and all. dad even asked me to apply tahfiz that time like dad, teruk sangat ke perangai along? lol no lah u realize at that time ur father love u so much he want u to be surrounded wif gud people n be nice and be more religious,

its a beautiful nightt we lookin for smething down to do hey babe i think i wanna marry u yeah thats what im currently listenin to. so then guess what? i got matrik. in sains kesihatan. at kulim, kedah bakhang. at the same time i got diploma, and guess what course? diploma in tahfiz and syariah . bruh that got me goosebump eveytime ppl asked me zara u amik kos apa dlu? i pun wif a humble heart said i amik syariah kos dulu and they be like, okay. and look at me like im so religious after dude ! u dont know me? im a rock star 🌟  lol .

so yeah i think u know what my last decision. i took diploma. my dad macam nak i amik matrik instead. i pulak macam istikharah jugak, that night i felt like so tenang if i took tahfiz and syariah i dont know why. but i felt it lah. so i took diploma 3 years at kolej universiti alquran, kuala kubu bharu.

at that time lah eighteen till twenty half, i belajar growing up. ride a 🚊 train, make friends, from brunei banyak, sabah, and all. but u know what ? ramai budak kedah katsitu sampai i rasa suka bila cakap loghat kedah smpai i rasa hello zara? u nak kawin dengan orang kedah ke? n then i fikir dude thats so far awayyyy remember dulu u nak amik matrik kat kulim pun u taknak pergi now u nak jodoh kedah ohplease no. i just suka loghat depa je. penang pun macamtu kan loghat dorang? hahaha

right now am listening to rolex by ayo ohyeah dab lol. so i banyak lah belajar katsana i belajar shopping alone. naik train sorang pergi kl sentral, ts, mid, klcc like alone weh. ayah marah lah jugak ofcourse. and then dari situ i banyak belajar be so berdikari but not so berdikari. lol n nu sentral always be my favourite place untuk lepak and release stress even jauh lah jugak nak naik train dari kuala kubu bharu tu till kl sentral lol sanggup weh. how sad ma life.

okay rn gold by kiira while dancing to choreography by lia kim 1 million dance 💃. okay so banyak lah experiences from diploma life dulu. crush? ofkos lah ada . suka ? ofkos lah ada bruh we are hooman afterall right? but i suka tu takdelah i bercinta zaman diploma dulu. bruh tengok nama tempat tu pun u all punya mindset like oh semua budak baik baik takde nak cintan cintun hahahah thats how im thinking at first but then oh tak dierang semua sama je like orang luar haha . just they are more religious lah . they tu cam termasuk aku je sebab aku pun belajar situ lol but am not so im just ordinary girl rockin my life here n there. lol they nice not like me.

but i learn so many things lah there. bruh tempat i tu kan kalau diorang suka diorang series smpai nak masuk minang terus lah after habis nanti . proof? dah banyak . kawan i satu kos dierang takdela i nampak bercinta pun time tu tapi adalah rumor rumor tu pastu boom! menjadi jugak eh korang kawin jugek alhamdulillah congrats! no fake hope lah.

lol listening to happier by ed now. so banyaklah i nak cakap i banyak belajar katsana. actually kat mana mana tempat pun banyak benda boleh belajar . like your surroundings, people around u, everything . forgot to mention, why i tak bercinta time diploma dulu? hahaha actually i dah doa awalawal if u wanna know , i pray that i tak bercinta bila i jejak kaki kat tempat tu i pray that i tak fikir pasal tu pun time i diploma katsitu. haha n look 👀 Allah so amazing. im so strong that time .
bukan no one bothering me but Allah protect . i pun bukan jenis keluar bilik sangat . i nak keluar oun time i nak keluar shoppin thats all pastu terperap dalam bilik layan kdrama, dancing sampai pengsan lol! and then study. lol studyyy sangattttt.

and the thing is i jumpa classmate i kat tempat i kerja. dia pun tengok tengok. i pun tengok dia balik dengan muka saiko i lol 😆 n balik tu boleh pulak dia dm i dekat instagram i gigih kot get rid all boy-friend kat ig i how can he jumpa?! then i tak sombong jangan risau. i reply je. i rasa muak i block balik lol what a bad ass. sorry 😐

and then i pun 👩‍🎓 graduateeee . pss tipulah i tak fikir pasal my sad love story time diploma dulu. ada lah i stalk jugak but tak selalu. like so jarang . look how strong i masa tu?! im so proud of maself hoyeah.

n then i punya pointer tak hebat pun weh. i dah cakap i tak study pun i dancing je dlu. oh so sad what an ass u zara . iknow. sebabtu upu i takdapat. hahahhaa belajar tinggi pun tapi susah dapat upu . what a horrible life u been living zara. so i calm myself think positive maybie Allah want me to work first, experience more life be more matured get surrounded with more people ha camtulah . so i decided to work .


love, zara 💕

Holla July 2018

Hello gorgeous. Assalammualaikum well kalau i bagi salam i dont know ada orang jawab tak lol kk .

So right now am currently on the bed with ma headphone on while playing dont by Ed sheeran, dude thats an old song ! bruh i don ker as long as i can grooving kbye.

So actually i was currently suffering but not so suffered from chicken pox? eww thats gross! ya ya with all the scars iknow i got it but dude they goin to get away from ur body too soon okay! dont worry i also consume shaklee so got no probs at all and also im goin to have an appointment with klinik hana soon

okay change right now am currently enjoy to im in love with the cocoa by hitimpulse. actually im a bit impressed wif this song like youre in love with the cocoa and u make that as a song while the music video is a bit awkward like standing while holding the cocoa lol

okay back to the topic . im goin to have an appointment with klinik hana at wangsa maju soon to fix the scars on my face like clear it off lol maybie on this wednesday am not so sure . i actually nak pergi tadi dude but then mom said takpayah takpayah im like so frustrated like i dah siap pun haih


haih my life. im like currently having a crush on everyone like wheres my true love actually hiding? like sampai bila u nak crush crush everywhere zara. u should start thinking bout ur future life now zara. ohmy.


okayokay im listening to perfect by ed sheeran now. homagad u never know how im soooo in love wif this song! oh every girls love it! u know what?! i nak use this song for my wedding okay! but then fattzura dah steal it from me!!! like everytime i hear this song im a lil bit teringat dekat fattah wedding like yeah i pernah je minat jugak fattah amin tu even orang kata muka dia jambu lol but then they have to use my song as their wedding song!! so sad ohmalife . itsokay

i ada lagu lain you are my reason by calum scott! okay im gonna use this song for my wedding soon hoyeh! but am gonna use perfect jugak fer my wedding song nanti lol. hokay!

back to the topic. i nak pergi klinik hana tu nak buat treatment and then goin okay wait now im listening to electric kiss by exo. oh i love their beat . again! dude dahlah concert dierang sabtu ni make sure u strong ur heart firstttt bcs please accept the fact that ur not goin! okay okay im trying okay change the song please. okay now lost in japan by shawn but its my alarm song so i feel a bit sleepy haha sokay am not gonna change it .

so after goin to klinik hana oh u can find them on instagram @klinikhana they r so best lah! so after am goin to hop onto cinema? watching incredible? babe i na tengok skyscraper dude that therock berlakon! my bae since childhood wwe bro! no lah i mean hello i can buat kening angkat satu macam dia selalu buat okay! like my childhood even ask me everytime weh buat mata therock weh so i always lah show off kay okay sekarang it was IDGAF by dualipa bruh that song are the best kot like the lyrics so win! u say ur sorry but its too late now so save it get gone shut up! lol thats my favorite .

but then skycraper show dekat sunway putra mall on this thursday  dude im goin to start working on that day!

so i takdapat la nak tengok skyscraper tu i guess. then i maybie jalanjalan dekat sunway mall je after. makesure to get that ice caramel macchiato ofcourse! but then i forgot la sunway ada startbuck tak? i lupa weh lama i tak keluar what a lady . so okay bosan pulak lagu ni.

okay so currently listening to me too by meghan while a lil bit dancing choreography by siapa tah laki tu dia cam lembut sikit ha! kevin shin on 1 million dance studio! hoyeah i suka choreo lagu tu by him a lil bit sexy lol kay dah tukar to something like this by chainsmoker.

okay then i kena maintain la jugak this body so i decide to dancing everytime and searching for an awesome choreography dekat youtube so i learn and learn banyak jugaklah i dapat and literally boleh make ur body more wow okay . like the same lah as zumba fitness but i more like to dancing to the best beating song afterall. so 1 million dance studio are one of my favourite. kyle hanagami, matt steffanina, tim miligram? not sure the spelling but yeah not all lah their choreograph some of them yang best lah. and then hoyeah am listening to meaning of life by kelly clarkson! dude if u know me u dont know how much im so adoring to the people who got head voice!

like ariana grande , kelly clarkson, jessi j, taeyeon, beyonce their high note are si incredibly amazing! homai u literally got goosebumps everytime u hear they singing!

u show me love u lift me up u take me higher and higher the truth yes im in love can u feel love u take me higghherrrrrrrrrrrr lol can u hear me screamin that part? u better not or ur ear goin to explode lol i hope not oh yes its from meaning of life by kelly clarkson.

and then dekat hostel dulu i bukan belajar tau! i dancing! like oh im listening to ride by twenty one pilot dude i like this song! im falling so im taking on ma rideeeeee . and sambung tadi i always dancing! i pernah dancing lagu kpop jugak infront of my friends like they always ask me zara nak tengok kau menari lagi so i show lah my skill but please take note jugakla im not so professional lol im just dancing because its my hobby i taktahu since when. but it is so fun when u practise and practise sampai u mahir the choreography kan pastu u just dancing with all ur heart u can be so awesome dude! u never know how thats feel. oh im so love to dance!

but then bukan lagu kpop je lagipun i tahu sikit je kpop im more into english song dancing! like a ll the choreographer i mention tadi kalau diorang punya choreography tu best i belajar lah apa lagi lol! okay lah i ada banyak lagi nak cerita but then dah panjang sangat plus i tak solat zohor lagi! dah pukul 3 mashaAllah zara.

so i chou dulu kalau ada salah apa apa or a lil bit show off or a lil bit amnoying above itu sebab i tak solat lagi latu okay guys bye im off u la la

love, zara

Annyong !

Today i felt so tired bcse yeah i was sleeping all day emm not,
 just half day haha okay back after class at 12.30 noon i straightly bumped
into my precious bed oh wait i was eatin first while watchin MISSING NINE EP 3 !!!!
my precious Chanyeol oppaaaa why so handsome n cute haha then i back to sleep at 3.3++ pm
and woke up back 5.19 pm woah so tired ! myb bcs i was sleeping too long

yeah ottoke , it was very nice weather to go sleep u knowww its raining all day and
the weather is so cold ! even its noon haha just bcse its rainin . i hope on march it will be nice weather and cold too bcse yeah haha exo will come here soon in march !!!
so chanyeol will not say the same thing again like before when they came here in march 2016 haha that the weather is so hot they couldnt even face the weather they were sweatin very much haha

Then i remember jongin put the cold water bottle in his shirt and his neck haha and so pcy did the same he even gettin bath on the stage he pour himself the water on his head and splash it on others like a dog ! kekekeke  i miss them so much and cannot wait to see them again this 18 march soooon ~

okayy thats all for today i was drinking too much cold water on this cold weather right now and i feel like want to pee all time haha okay i need to ppalli !

Annyong :)

Pengalaman Temuduga Diploma Tahfiz Darul Quran Sesi 2014/2017

{was edited before}

Assalammualaikum.

A lil bit of sharing moment here.


First beginning of this story,.  need to be there 3o mins early before 8.30am .

Straight to Muktamar' s hall after. Que following your first letter of your name.

And here I would really like to remind you again never forget to bring all the important documents that is needed .
Also dont forget to bring the Holy Quran ofcourse. I would like to advise you to bring the translator one instead just for safety if you happen to fart lol i mean if you suddenly dont have the wudhu' with you .

After that they will give us one letter to show where our interview room is , like me i got M room so i need to go to M room .but first you need to go Muktamar's hall to take "ujian bertulis" .
After register, just get in the hall and find a suitable seat for your exam later. It is random so you can sit wherever you like.

So after you get your sit, start pray and selawat banyak banyak .

Then, the lecturer will start to give some informations or some tips maybe i dont remember.
It takes half an hour before you can finally start your exam.


Ujian Bertulis Darul Quran:
30 soalan Bahasa Arab (SPM punya syllable)
30 soalan Tajwid (Make sure prepare untuk tajwid tahap tinggi like tajwid tahap khoisyum *Googleje*)
30 soalan Psikologi ( Tick Ya or Tidak )

After that congratulations your done with your first exam.

Then, get prepare for Syafawi test after.
And this is where you got your letter before, functioning.
So just head to your room .

And wait till the uztaz give some information later :)
So at that time, get prepare all the document that is need to be given after .
Before i forgot, first after you register you dont have to give any docs just tick your attendance


About the information,
Ujian Syafawi Darul Quran: 40 minit

First, you need to check your name on the name list that is pasted on the wall beside your interview room and sign so that would be easy for ustaz to know if you exist or nah lol

So wait till your name get called

Mostly panel yang iv tu uztaz

Dont forget to bring all the docs before getting in and the Quran,
Masuk, duduk.
Uztz will asks for the docs.
Sambil uztz semak uztz amik AQ kita uztz bg satu muka surat suruh baca,
Dah habis baca uztz kata uztz bg masa 40 minit utk hafaz.

Lepastu keluar bilik,
Pergi lah carik port memana untuk hafal ,kat luar bilik tu pun boleh,
tapi tak khusyuklah, banyak suara.
So sis pergilah turun carik port , dengan kawan baru, huhu,
masa mula lagi sblum start iv tu dah ada teman.syukur :)
yelah, sis datang sorang, kwnkwn sis yg dpt iv tu bkn haritu, diorang semua iv hari besoknya.
Jadi bila kita keseorangan ni dont worry, Allah hantar peneman untuk kita, dengan izinNya.

Lepastu pergilah hafal, susah jugak nak hafal, sbb tak prepare sbnrnya
Tapi alhamdulillah boleh, tapi tulah tak berapa lancar.
So prepare first before datang iv k.

Lepastu dah cukup 40 mnt, 5 mnt awal sis pun naik atas.(Sbnarnya tak ready langsung)
Nampaknya dekat dalam bilik tu ada orang lain , jadi ada masa lah lagi utk prektis.
Tapi kan , msatu ada seorang hamba Allah ni juga tengah prektis, kuat pula tu suaranya.
jadi mengganggu gak la  pastu sis bangun dari kerusi sis pergi ke depan sikit kat balkoni pastu berdiri situ pastu hafal kuatkuat juga, haha.

Lepastu uztz tu pggil nama  , eh ingat juga uztz ni nama sis kan, yela nama jenis senang nak ingat.
K, pastu dengan nervousnya masuk lah bilik tu,
pastu tasmik depan uztz.

 tarik napas pejam mata,
the penghafalan begin.
Tak lancar sangat, tapi dont worry uztz tu will help.

Lepastu berhenti dekat separuh nak habis ayat , sebab tak lancar sangat kan. Uztz tu suruh berhenti,
lepastu mintak maaf dekat uztz sbb tak berapa nk lancar.

Lepastu uztz tanya ,kamu minat nak masuk DQ?
Z : aah.
U : Kamu duduk rawang kan?
Z : Aah ye.
U : Kamu nak jadi doktor kan?
Z : Aaaa aah.
Z : Tapi tulah ,keputusan sains stream saya rasa tak melayakkan saya untuk capai cita-2 tu,
U : hem, tulah
Z : Jadi saya tukar cita-2 nak jadi pegawai syariah
U : hem.ok
Z : eh pegawai pulak, peguam, peguam syariah.
U : ...hemmm baiklah. ok. terima kasih .(tanda iv sudah habis)
Z : Ala tapi uztz saya nak masuk DQ . (sis ckp cmni sbb uztz tak tanya soalan2 yg mcm knp nak msauk DQ, and all so sis risau tkut tk dpt)
U : Memanglah, siapa taknak, semua yang datang sini semua nak masuk.
Z : hmm betul tu.
U : Baiklah terimakasih.
Z : ok uztz, assalammualaikum.
U : waalaikummussalam.

sis pun bangun keluar dengan perasaan yang berbolak balik, takut tak dapat sebb penghafalan tak berapa lancar kan.

Tapi sebelum keluar tu, uztz tibatiba bersuara:
Kalau ada rezeki tak kemana .
Z : In shaa Allah
(Alhamdulillah, sis tenang sikit selepas dengar kata2 uztz )
Lepastu keluar, alhamdulillah nampaknya panel tak tanya banyak mana pun soalan.
alhamdulillah, bersyukur sangat. Syukran Jiddan Allahhu
Tapi nanti korang yg akn datang ni prepare lah for that
Soalan contoh:
Knp nak masuk DQ?
Bilangan ayat dalam AQ.
Bilangan surah dalam AQ.
Bilangan muka surat dalam AQ.
Sirah tentang khulafa'arrasyidin.
Isu semasa- syria, palestin, syiah, ikhwanul muslimin, mh370 dan sbgnya.

Lepastu balik.
sebelum balik ambil gambar dulu dekat DQ tu sbgai kenang kenangan.

contoh: haha

(DELETED) :')

Ni tempat parking.

kat bangunan sini sunyi sangat, khas utk tmpat nk mghafal., iv dan sbgainya.

Pastu keputusan temuduga rasanya keluar 21 april

jadi tepat 21 april sis cek, tak keluar lagi, esoknya 22 april cek, takdapt. Redha.

Pastu dah lama sikit, baru ni sis terdetik hati nak cek semula melalui link yang member bagi,

sajalah, duduk duduk masatu sambil belek hp, fb, member kasi link utk cek, 

so sis pun terdetik hati nk cek semula pkai hp.

lepas dah masuk nombor ic, tengok, tahniah katanya, terkejut

subhanallah sis pelik ,haritu mula2 tengok takdapat, Allahhu 

beritahu ayah, lepastu sis tak puas hati sis cek pkai komputer.

Tengok2 , Alhamdulillah, Maha Suci Allah, Segala Puji bagiMu

Alhamdulillah.

So conclusion jangan cek awal2. tunggu ada orang kasi link dulu baru pergi cek.

sebab masa mula2 tu sis cek terus g website Darul Quran , bukan pakai link mana2.

member yg kasi link ni dia ambil persijilan dekat Darul Quran. 

sis amik diploma.

Subhanallah , Alhamdulillah, begitulah serba sedikit perkongsian. acewah en

Sebenarnya hati ni berbelah bahagi, 

sis dapat matrik dekat Kolej Mara Kulim dalam kos sains.

so ayh suruh tunggu asasi.

so konpius, berbolak balik, tiada arah, tiada tujuan mana satu yang patut dipilih, 

bukan yg mahukan tetapi perlukan, kerana Allah bagi apa yg kita perlu, bukan apa yang kita mahu.

so buat istikharah. istikharah jgn sekali dua, tetapi berbanyaklah kali.

jd semalam tu, sblum nak tidur, pikir2 mana satu ni Allah Karim, aku komfius. sebab asasi sis minta USIM sana tamhidi syariah dan undang2 , kalau dapat yang itu, sis taktahu antara DQ dgn USIM mana satu sis perlukan. Jadi pikir2 tiba2 datang satu suara yang betul2 meyakinkan .

Alah, macam nilah, kau jangan risau. lepas habis je DQ kau akn dpt sambung juga mana2 kos yg kau nak trmasuk kat USIM tu, jadi jgn risau. kalau kau dapat kat USIM ke UIA ke mana2 ambil je DQ , Allah dah pilih kau tahu tak. bersyukurlah, 3 tahun je ,3 tahun je pun utk kau abiskan masa utk akhirat semata2. kau dah habiskan masa bertahun tahun campur duniawi ukhrawi bila pulak kau nak luangkan masa kau utk ukhrawi shj? come onlah usia muda nilah kau kena grab peluang, Allah dah bagi peluang tuh, come onlah kalau kau tolak, kau mmg rugi , sedangkan ramai beribu lagi nk masuk DQ, kau? Allah dah pilih, Allah dah bagi, kau amek, kau ambillah peluang ni, Allah dah pilih kau. 3 tahun je, percayalah takda rugi pun. Okeh?

Habis je en, sis tanya, Allah adakah ini satu petunjuk? Baiklah, semoga ianya terbaik utk ku dan keluargaku, kerana aku yakin Allah hanya akan bg yang terbaik sahaja utk hambaNya, Allah Maha Pengasih, Penyayang wahai saudara/ri ku sekalian.

Lepastu pagi tu  bangun bagitahu ummi.

masa malam sebelum tu (sis memang dah sahkan tawaran ke DQ tp masatu hati masih berbolak balik )(sblum dtg suara tu pd mlm tu),

malam tu juga sblum suara tu dtg,

 ummi kata, masa sis dah sahkan tawaran tu, ummi kata,

tp duk DQ ni along kena tahan sikit lah,

lepastu sis kata, memanglah, DQ ni orang yg masuk dalam tu, belajar mesti brbagai bentuk ujian dan dugaan daripada Allah, yelah, kalau nak capai satu darjat yang tinggi di sisi Allah ni mmg Allah akn timpakan ujian , brbagai bntuk ujian kpd hambaNya, utk uji , kemampuan kita, iman kita.

Tapi percayalah, Allah tak akan timpakan satu ujian kepada kita tu tanpa kemampuan kita . Maksudnya ujian itu hanya sekadar kemampuan kita. kita mampu menanganinya. 

Jan risau member sekalian. Allah ada babe.

Jadi masa malam tu juga suara tu datang. Semoga ianya petunjuk dari Allah, i'Allah ianya terbaik Amin.

So that is all. :)

Semoga berjaya korang 

Semoga segala urusan kita semua dipermudahkan Allah.

Jom together kejar syurga Allah! 

Wassalam 

:)